Quest 249
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Well, at least now I have an answer to one of my questions. Why wouldn't someone want that spell to be found, indeed.
The Objurgation of Souls. The very name sounds awful, as though I'm going to bring down a rebuke on myself for even daring to touch it. Even now, I haven't dared to do much more than open the cover, just enough to see the writing in ink and the ivory of the page; my scrap seems much more yellowed, but that could easily be from the wear and tear of being used as a marker in another book for so long. Or perhaps it's something more magical than that--a book of magic is certainly magic itself, isn't it? Perhaps there's magic in keeping it neat, and when my bit was separated from it, it lost that protection.
It's a very strange book. It feels powerful. Is that the nature of spellbooks, I wonder, that they all feel magical to the touch? Or is it just that I know it should be, know what some of the things inside this book could do, and it's my own trepidations that make even the very pages and binding seem dangerous?
It is dangerous. I'm sure it is. Dr. Argento and Miss Philomena said it was magic that caused a change, a shift. And how many times have I thought of trying something like that, but couldn't bring myself to go through with it? This isn't like a curse, where I simply wake up one day as a bird. And it's not like my crown, either. That's as easy as placing it on and taking it back off again, there's no danger of doing it wrong and--
I once put myself to sleep for two days because I made a mistake. I tied myself up on the Warehouse floor because I made a mistake. And since then, now, I've always dreaded this--what happens if I try to change myself into something else and I make a mistake that way, as well? There was a day I thought I'd been trapped halfway. What if this is the same? This isn't a toy, it's not something to play with. What if I do it wrong again, somehow, and end up trapped beyond repair? Sam isn't here to watch with me. And Cain hates magic, even if he's somewhat grown to accept that I can do it. And everyone else...no, if I'm to do this, it'll be on my own.
But can I?
I have the book. So long as I don't put it back into the Library, it won't disappear again. I have it and it's there, and it can wait. It can wait as long as I need it to, can't it?
I made mistakes because I was rushing. I wasn't concentrating properly, I tried to cut corners and hurry to get things done, and that's why I ruined it. My necklace came out fine, because I was careful about it. I took precautions. So I just have to be patient this time, too. I have to take my time and do it properly and read it all over very carefully before I start thinking I know more than I do. It takes time to be a wizard, and practice to be a magician. So I won't rush it, either. Even if Alexander could've done it faster or better, I won't let that bother me. What matters is that I do it in my own time, and correctly, and that nothing happens to me in the process. That's what matters.
All right, then. I have my book. I'll give it until Valentine's Day, at least. The last thing I want is for anything to spoil that, and then I'll have a whole month until my birthday. That's not so terrible a goal, is it? Not a deadline to rush for, but just a goal. I'll try to have it worked out around my birthday, but not before. Then I won't rush. I'll have to take it carefully. That will be for the best.
And in any case, it'll give me the time to think about much more pleasant things, like finding a dress for the ball. And daydreaming about who I might dance with. I wonder if I ought to try to have one for my own birthday this year? I've been lucky in the past few years, but with Blair and Penny both gone now...mm. I'm no good at planning parties, but perhaps I ought to give it a try, just the same. Even if it's not anything like Blair's, twenty years is...it would make Mother happy to know I was having a ball for it. That I was at least trying to keep from being a spinster.
Well, then, that's today's project, I think. A dress it is, and a mask to match.
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...That's odd, how did that get there? And it doesn't seem to want to come down, at any rate, so I suppose it will have to stay. It's a bit odd to think of a cat dancing, isn't it? And especially so when his partner has turned herself invisible; one would think she'd want to be the center of attention if she could help it, and show off her lovely dress for all to see. Though perhaps she's invisible because she's shy, or was made to feel ashamed of the dress she had, like Cinderella. Poor dear, I'm sure it was very lovely. After all, fur never does go out of fashion, does it?
Well, in any case, it seems I'm not the only one with dancing on my mind, if these cats are any indication. And how could anyone not, with a ball like Tamaki's on the horizon? And I must admit, I'm quite excited about the theme--I like all the parties we have here, of course, but the formal balls are really my favorites. They feel the most like home, and it's always such fun to see all the lovely ladies in dresses and their dapper partners dancing the night away.
And speaking of dancing, is it true that most people in modern times never learn how to waltz properly? Really, it's such a shame to hear. But there's still a few weeks until the ball, and that's certainly more than enough time for lessons, if anyone should like to learn how. After all, "practice every day has made / Pangur perfect in his trade", as the rhyme goes. And I'm sure there are enough of us around who do know how to dance, that we ought to be able to offer lessons for anyone interested in learning.
[OOC: She's in ur City makin ur lolcats relevant. Link is OOC and there for player reference, but she's definitely advertising for the ball--and yes, she's serious about offering dancing lessons for anyone who wants to learn how. After all, the more people dancing, the merrier! And if anybody else wants to get in on helping teach, feel free to chat Rosella up about it; she'd be more than pleased for the help. ♥]
Well, at least now I have an answer to one of my questions. Why wouldn't someone want that spell to be found, indeed.
The Objurgation of Souls. The very name sounds awful, as though I'm going to bring down a rebuke on myself for even daring to touch it. Even now, I haven't dared to do much more than open the cover, just enough to see the writing in ink and the ivory of the page; my scrap seems much more yellowed, but that could easily be from the wear and tear of being used as a marker in another book for so long. Or perhaps it's something more magical than that--a book of magic is certainly magic itself, isn't it? Perhaps there's magic in keeping it neat, and when my bit was separated from it, it lost that protection.
It's a very strange book. It feels powerful. Is that the nature of spellbooks, I wonder, that they all feel magical to the touch? Or is it just that I know it should be, know what some of the things inside this book could do, and it's my own trepidations that make even the very pages and binding seem dangerous?
It is dangerous. I'm sure it is. Dr. Argento and Miss Philomena said it was magic that caused a change, a shift. And how many times have I thought of trying something like that, but couldn't bring myself to go through with it? This isn't like a curse, where I simply wake up one day as a bird. And it's not like my crown, either. That's as easy as placing it on and taking it back off again, there's no danger of doing it wrong and--
I once put myself to sleep for two days because I made a mistake. I tied myself up on the Warehouse floor because I made a mistake. And since then, now, I've always dreaded this--what happens if I try to change myself into something else and I make a mistake that way, as well? There was a day I thought I'd been trapped halfway. What if this is the same? This isn't a toy, it's not something to play with. What if I do it wrong again, somehow, and end up trapped beyond repair? Sam isn't here to watch with me. And Cain hates magic, even if he's somewhat grown to accept that I can do it. And everyone else...no, if I'm to do this, it'll be on my own.
But can I?
I have the book. So long as I don't put it back into the Library, it won't disappear again. I have it and it's there, and it can wait. It can wait as long as I need it to, can't it?
I made mistakes because I was rushing. I wasn't concentrating properly, I tried to cut corners and hurry to get things done, and that's why I ruined it. My necklace came out fine, because I was careful about it. I took precautions. So I just have to be patient this time, too. I have to take my time and do it properly and read it all over very carefully before I start thinking I know more than I do. It takes time to be a wizard, and practice to be a magician. So I won't rush it, either. Even if Alexander could've done it faster or better, I won't let that bother me. What matters is that I do it in my own time, and correctly, and that nothing happens to me in the process. That's what matters.
All right, then. I have my book. I'll give it until Valentine's Day, at least. The last thing I want is for anything to spoil that, and then I'll have a whole month until my birthday. That's not so terrible a goal, is it? Not a deadline to rush for, but just a goal. I'll try to have it worked out around my birthday, but not before. Then I won't rush. I'll have to take it carefully. That will be for the best.
And in any case, it'll give me the time to think about much more pleasant things, like finding a dress for the ball. And daydreaming about who I might dance with. I wonder if I ought to try to have one for my own birthday this year? I've been lucky in the past few years, but with Blair and Penny both gone now...mm. I'm no good at planning parties, but perhaps I ought to give it a try, just the same. Even if it's not anything like Blair's, twenty years is...it would make Mother happy to know I was having a ball for it. That I was at least trying to keep from being a spinster.
Well, then, that's today's project, I think. A dress it is, and a mask to match.
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...That's odd, how did that get there? And it doesn't seem to want to come down, at any rate, so I suppose it will have to stay. It's a bit odd to think of a cat dancing, isn't it? And especially so when his partner has turned herself invisible; one would think she'd want to be the center of attention if she could help it, and show off her lovely dress for all to see. Though perhaps she's invisible because she's shy, or was made to feel ashamed of the dress she had, like Cinderella. Poor dear, I'm sure it was very lovely. After all, fur never does go out of fashion, does it?
Well, in any case, it seems I'm not the only one with dancing on my mind, if these cats are any indication. And how could anyone not, with a ball like Tamaki's on the horizon? And I must admit, I'm quite excited about the theme--I like all the parties we have here, of course, but the formal balls are really my favorites. They feel the most like home, and it's always such fun to see all the lovely ladies in dresses and their dapper partners dancing the night away.
And speaking of dancing, is it true that most people in modern times never learn how to waltz properly? Really, it's such a shame to hear. But there's still a few weeks until the ball, and that's certainly more than enough time for lessons, if anyone should like to learn how. After all, "practice every day has made / Pangur perfect in his trade", as the rhyme goes. And I'm sure there are enough of us around who do know how to dance, that we ought to be able to offer lessons for anyone interested in learning.
[OOC: She's in ur City makin ur lolcats relevant. Link is OOC and there for player reference, but she's definitely advertising for the ball--and yes, she's serious about offering dancing lessons for anyone who wants to learn how. After all, the more people dancing, the merrier! And if anybody else wants to get in on helping teach, feel free to chat Rosella up about it; she'd be more than pleased for the help. ♥]