Fair warning: Droppy
It's a strange thing when things are good and bad at the same time isn't it? You're happy, yet so very much just isn't ....right? ... settled? Or you know, you logically, rationally can think through someone and you know it should be this way.... but it's not. It's disconnected.
Or you think there comes a time when you'll be able to leave the past in the past. That life will be different enough, or time will have covered enough that it won't matter any more. That these things will stop colouring your opinions and that things will just be...
... that some how we could live without the past, or understand happiness without having to understand sorrow, that no one had to build any more god damned characted.
I still haven't found a better way of working through it then recognizing it's a problem, and then doing the opposite of what I want to do in situations. It is annoying and frankly, I'm sick of feeling uncomfortable.
While we're on the subject of ridiculous things I want...
I kid. But It's about time for me to do something stupid and irresponsible again. Does anyone else mark occasions by doing stupid things? Is that that some mad Heather logic working here?
Or you think there comes a time when you'll be able to leave the past in the past. That life will be different enough, or time will have covered enough that it won't matter any more. That these things will stop colouring your opinions and that things will just be...
... that some how we could live without the past, or understand happiness without having to understand sorrow, that no one had to build any more god damned characted.
I still haven't found a better way of working through it then recognizing it's a problem, and then doing the opposite of what I want to do in situations. It is annoying and frankly, I'm sick of feeling uncomfortable.
While we're on the subject of ridiculous things I want...
I kid. But It's about time for me to do something stupid and irresponsible again. Does anyone else mark occasions by doing stupid things? Is that that some mad Heather logic working here?