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today begins the year of 2005 kicking my ass. i won't have a single day off until the end of april when i go to vegas for a weekend. my classes are going to be hard as hell. i won't be able to hang out with people very often at all... i'll have to schedule meetings days in advance.
partying is completely out of the question. i look at this as a good thing though, because i'm really fucking sick of getting fucked up. why do i still do it? no time for addictions now. but at least i went out with a bang.
the hardest part about this year is going to be keeping my head straight. keeping everything organized, dealing with all the pressure, figuring out what to do with my life after school, etc. this existance is so crazy... how do people do it? wait a minute, i know people that don't do it.
which brings me to the end of this entry. i used to be a lazy ass. i used to do absolutely nothing. looking back on those days, i chalk it up to depression. suddenly, not even a year later, i am completely booked for months on end. i have goals, and i have money to achieve those goals.
i've been dreading this day for years. i always knew that one day the shit would hit the fan and i would have to change who i am. from top to bottom, inside out. the next 6 months are going to completely flip my shit whether i want them to or not. but to be honest, i can't think of a better way to grow the fuck up. and when i'm done, i'll have something to show for it.
see you in a few months.
partying is completely out of the question. i look at this as a good thing though, because i'm really fucking sick of getting fucked up. why do i still do it? no time for addictions now. but at least i went out with a bang.
the hardest part about this year is going to be keeping my head straight. keeping everything organized, dealing with all the pressure, figuring out what to do with my life after school, etc. this existance is so crazy... how do people do it? wait a minute, i know people that don't do it.
which brings me to the end of this entry. i used to be a lazy ass. i used to do absolutely nothing. looking back on those days, i chalk it up to depression. suddenly, not even a year later, i am completely booked for months on end. i have goals, and i have money to achieve those goals.
i've been dreading this day for years. i always knew that one day the shit would hit the fan and i would have to change who i am. from top to bottom, inside out. the next 6 months are going to completely flip my shit whether i want them to or not. but to be honest, i can't think of a better way to grow the fuck up. and when i'm done, i'll have something to show for it.
see you in a few months.