Do I have the speed to carry on?
I don't have terribly much to report today. I've spent the past few days watching episodes of Weeds. Tuesday featured a PR meeting, and yesterday I ventured down to the Union and sold merchandise before heading back to the station and hanging out with Will, Shawn, and Bradley. Today was somewhat similar, except that I DJed and I loitered around for an hour with Bradley, Katie, Nada, Jackie, and Stone (the latter two outside the Diffenbaugh building) before running errands and having some really wonderful barbecue pork, cabbage (it was more like sauerkraut, actually!), incredible waffle fries, and a brownie. I also received a present from mermaidshotel comprised of a really funny postcard, a CD-R containing songs from rare and out-of-print Prolapse EPs, and a copy of Can Dialectics Break Bricks? (thank you for all those, Kashina!). Even so, I still felt rather downcast and cynical today.This time last year I pretty much spent the whole day staring into the rain outside my window. I don't think it's projected to rain, but I imagine I'll do something similar up until I work in the evening. I'm just going to feel very lonesome and restless and it'll be amplified tenfold in my mind to the point where I'll consider turning my nose upside-down in the shower. I wish everyone wasn't so busy with other things today, I wish I didn't keep others at arms-length even when I'm at my most candid, and I wish I could have a weekend where today would be bloody ecstatic and exciting and I could spend the rest of it recovering in relative calm, but it'll be the exact opposite of what I desire. I'll be constantly occupied, wishing it were the next weekend, and I'll be alone. It's not going to be a good day (or couple of days), let me tell you. It isn't what I had in mind and what I was hoping wouldn't happen again this year. Oh well. I need to remember my own advice; expect the worst and nothing can disappoint you. Then again, knowing my personal experience, sometimes expecting the worst means things end up being even worse than I'd expect!
In brighter news, the NME posted this new song from The Verve ("The Thaw Session" is the correct title, singular, not plural) and it's exactly what I was hoping for but wasn't expecting. It sounds like the understated, 14-minute long brooding cousin to the second half of "Gravity Grave" (which means this file is fucking huge since it's in the glory of CD-quality 320 kbps with at 48k bit rate) and I couldn't be more pleased. Welcome back, boys!
Other songs for today:
Ben Watt - "Thirst for Knowledge"
(From his first album from 1982, pre-Everything But the Girl.)
Breathless - "Ageless"
(Their second single if I remember right, the first hint of what was to come on The Glass Bead Game even though it never appeared on that record.)
The Terminals - "Both Ends Burning"
(Roxy Music done lo-fi Kiwi style.)
And this picture from the wildfires in California is quite incredible.