If you love me then let go of me (Topic 5)
They say it's impossible to forget where you came from, to free yourself of the ties that bind you. I agree with the first part, because no matter how far you run or how fast you always see the same face in the mirror every morning. You remember where you came from. When your claws are ripping through the flesh of men and your jaws are grinding against collarbones you remember where you came from, who made you, created you. At least I do, I'll never forget him. Never forget but stay trapped for the rest of my unnatural life? I don't think so. You can free yourself, you just have to have the meaner bite, if you know what I mean.
I guess vampires probably have the same problem. God, I've seen it enough anyway. The babies are always pussy whipped by their sires, afraid to raise a hand in their own defense. I don't really know a whole lot about vampires, frankly they annoy me generally speaking but every once in awhile you find a fun one. But even the fun ones? Have Daddy or Mommy issues. That's probably true of all of us, right? Some people might say I was so attracted to Thornley in the first place because I never had a daddy of my own. But really? It wasn't the daddy issues that had me falling all over myself in front of him. It was the lust, that spark, animal attraction is something that never goes away and Thornley took it to a very literal place.
That's enough about how I met him, let's just say I did and leave it at that. I was stupid over that boy in a way I'd never been stupid before. Really I was just a little girl trying to play in a grown up world, Shy was just starting to take off a little bit but we weren't having alot of luck and then came Thornley. He wasn't just the best fuck I'd ever had in my life, he was my saviour.
Which brings us to who I am now and who I used to be. What I used to be was a nothing, I had a little bit of talent and the kind of drive that most girls who grow up in trailer parks have but when I was turned I became something so much more. It wasn't just those nights when the moon was full in the sky and I could feel myself start to change. In the beginning, they had been terrifying but everyday I grew stronger, just like he said I would. It wasn't just the beast I became every month, it was who I'd become. Oz had it all wrong, pretending that the wolf was something you only were a few days a month. You're the wolf all of the time, I can feel it coursing through me, all of that hunger and I want more.
It was easy to kill Thornley. I mean, did I really want someone lording over me for the rest of my life? Not really. That's the problem with boys, you throw them a bone once in awhile and they think they can slap a collar on you and call you their own. Call me a free spirit but I was never okay with that. It was time to strike out on my own. The only problem was how? If I waited until we changed he was too strong to beat, he'd been doing this whole werewolf thing alot longer than I had.
So instead I stabbed him to death in his sleep. I hope this serves as a lesson to boys everywhere. Never underestimate a sure thing, because you never know when the beast inside might turn on you. It could be your very last mistake.
I guess vampires probably have the same problem. God, I've seen it enough anyway. The babies are always pussy whipped by their sires, afraid to raise a hand in their own defense. I don't really know a whole lot about vampires, frankly they annoy me generally speaking but every once in awhile you find a fun one. But even the fun ones? Have Daddy or Mommy issues. That's probably true of all of us, right? Some people might say I was so attracted to Thornley in the first place because I never had a daddy of my own. But really? It wasn't the daddy issues that had me falling all over myself in front of him. It was the lust, that spark, animal attraction is something that never goes away and Thornley took it to a very literal place.
That's enough about how I met him, let's just say I did and leave it at that. I was stupid over that boy in a way I'd never been stupid before. Really I was just a little girl trying to play in a grown up world, Shy was just starting to take off a little bit but we weren't having alot of luck and then came Thornley. He wasn't just the best fuck I'd ever had in my life, he was my saviour.
Which brings us to who I am now and who I used to be. What I used to be was a nothing, I had a little bit of talent and the kind of drive that most girls who grow up in trailer parks have but when I was turned I became something so much more. It wasn't just those nights when the moon was full in the sky and I could feel myself start to change. In the beginning, they had been terrifying but everyday I grew stronger, just like he said I would. It wasn't just the beast I became every month, it was who I'd become. Oz had it all wrong, pretending that the wolf was something you only were a few days a month. You're the wolf all of the time, I can feel it coursing through me, all of that hunger and I want more.
It was easy to kill Thornley. I mean, did I really want someone lording over me for the rest of my life? Not really. That's the problem with boys, you throw them a bone once in awhile and they think they can slap a collar on you and call you their own. Call me a free spirit but I was never okay with that. It was time to strike out on my own. The only problem was how? If I waited until we changed he was too strong to beat, he'd been doing this whole werewolf thing alot longer than I had.
So instead I stabbed him to death in his sleep. I hope this serves as a lesson to boys everywhere. Never underestimate a sure thing, because you never know when the beast inside might turn on you. It could be your very last mistake.