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To my other half,
You and I are both doing a lot of things right now. A lot of things that are all us and not involving the other. And that is scary because for 7 years, every thing we did involved each other. Every miniscule detail of our lives was always known by one other person. We can pretend that things are still the same but we both know they are not. Not to say that things have gotten worse. I think it's the opposite. Since we have both been forced to make hard decisions on our own, we can appreciate each other more. And even though we have to be on different paths right now, you and I both know that in the end we will always find our way back to each other. Because let's face it, no one could ever replace me haha.
It hurts to know that we are growing, not apart, but up. Because growing up means being adults and relying on another person even if that person would be there for you in a second if you needed them. And I hate that I can't make you see how amazing you are, you, by yourself; even if things seem a little cloudy right now. I guess sometimes it's easier to write something than to say it because when you say it, it's real. I wish more than anything that I could go see you and somehow make everything better. But just like you said you weren't strong enough to do this, I'm not strong enough to go see you like this, knowing that this is one of the only things I can't make better. All I have ever wanted is for you to be happy. And now, all I can ask you to do is just take a while to remember. Remember how excited we were to make show choir even though you had no eyebrows and I had my mom's haircut, and mr. stevens with his pistachios and creepy cameron, and us being ms. white's favorite, and how we finally found where we were supposed to be senior year being choir officers. All those people saw how great you are and that's why put up with you :) and for some reason, you are never going to get rid of me.
I think that's all. And for those of you who might not know me as well, I am not talking about any guy. I'm talking about something way better.
You and I are both doing a lot of things right now. A lot of things that are all us and not involving the other. And that is scary because for 7 years, every thing we did involved each other. Every miniscule detail of our lives was always known by one other person. We can pretend that things are still the same but we both know they are not. Not to say that things have gotten worse. I think it's the opposite. Since we have both been forced to make hard decisions on our own, we can appreciate each other more. And even though we have to be on different paths right now, you and I both know that in the end we will always find our way back to each other. Because let's face it, no one could ever replace me haha.
It hurts to know that we are growing, not apart, but up. Because growing up means being adults and relying on another person even if that person would be there for you in a second if you needed them. And I hate that I can't make you see how amazing you are, you, by yourself; even if things seem a little cloudy right now. I guess sometimes it's easier to write something than to say it because when you say it, it's real. I wish more than anything that I could go see you and somehow make everything better. But just like you said you weren't strong enough to do this, I'm not strong enough to go see you like this, knowing that this is one of the only things I can't make better. All I have ever wanted is for you to be happy. And now, all I can ask you to do is just take a while to remember. Remember how excited we were to make show choir even though you had no eyebrows and I had my mom's haircut, and mr. stevens with his pistachios and creepy cameron, and us being ms. white's favorite, and how we finally found where we were supposed to be senior year being choir officers. All those people saw how great you are and that's why put up with you :) and for some reason, you are never going to get rid of me.
I think that's all. And for those of you who might not know me as well, I am not talking about any guy. I'm talking about something way better.