with those blue eyes and blonde hair, you'd be the belle of hitler's ball ...
you were waiting for the subway - my subway
i sat down and hoped you would be near
you sat across from me.
the next stop, i cried inside
when you offered your seat and the one next to it to two ladies
"such a gentlemen" they cheered, as i did along inside
"youre welcome, have a good night" you said to one of them as she left
striking blue eyes, and a bit dirty of blonde hair
reminding me of chris eckert, but youre not him
but all inside i wanted you to scream
"rachel its me, why dont you recognize me, its chris!"
but you're not him
so much you remind me of him though.
the seat beside me came empty
i hoped for you to sit beside me, knowing it wouldnt happen
then you did.
i glowed a little inside
you stood up again near finch station
every station i kept thinking you'd leave, but you stayed
you caught me admiring,
you smiled,
i blushed, and had to turn away.
everytime you looked at your phone, flipped through your phone
i kept praying in my mind you'd ask for my number.
i'm sad you didnt, cause it would have been yours ... without a doubt!
i'd like to think if dad wasnt sitting beside me..
i would have gone up to talk to you..
but i know i wouldn't..
i will always be the insecure, ugly, 12 y/o with no friends
all the men stared on the way down tonight, like they do nowadays...
but only you made me feel like i had something to offer.
we walked down the same hallway to leave.
but you went right, and i went left
i looked at you as you went up the escalator
and you had turned to look at me
ohhhh i melted a little inside.
you know the guys who you look at and know they'd be an unbelievable fuck?
that was him!
6 foot or more
rollerblades in hand
and oh my, what wonderful hands!
i never wanted to fuck someone so much in my life... except chris eckert!
so long my lover, till we meet again.
how is it that someone you dont even know, never met, can have such an impact on you? so strong, wanting to make you lose control?
i've been meaning to write about my weekend, but i've been getting home past 11 each night, and wishing i was in bed by 10... i promise it will happen tomorrow.