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i'm from a small town. i've hated it for as long as i can remember. i wanted nothing more than to get out of this place and move on to bigger and better things. in some ways i have. but i'm here right now and i'm happy. i don't want to leave. i love my mom so much and i just want to hang out with her. needless to say i miss tori. last year i never got homesick once. i loved being in orange county and away from all the uglies and ignorant people here. but this year has barely even started, i just moved like 2 weeks ago, and i'm already more homesick than ever. i love my shitty house and my tiny bedroom. i miss the smell of my house and all of the weird things in it. i miss my dad. i want to see my brother. i don't want to leave.