humility
This week has brought feelings of such utter humility that I lack the words to disscribe. At work we have been working on planograms that have changed there form several times. As the bulk person I havent been using my planogram as much as I go thru the store and order what I need and look it up in books. One of our managers complete gutted my coolers and reorginized it. She also found several mistakes in my planograms. In the store I am the only one who's sections mostly are filled by my own hand, taking 50 pounds worth of stock and bagging it lableing it and stocking it. Instead of working with me she just gutted it. She also found some kind of gunk on my selves so everything had to be taken off the selves and redone. There was also labeling problems. It was a fucking mess. I felt like such a faliure as a worker that I almost just walked away because I felt that I just had completely failed as a worker, especialy to my standereds. I even failed as a virgo. However since then I have come to better conclusions about why all this came about. My sections have all been replaced and alphabetized. My planogram has been overhalled and is up to snuff and I communicated with my bosses how I felt. There feelings were that now that we're going to this new p.o.s. (point of sale) system, that it will all be up to snuff and they are glad that they have me as a worker and that they feel that the way it all came about was wrong and will work with people more directly and stop changing everything untill they now everything they need. I feel really blessed to have this job and Iam making great finacial gains with it. But what lays at the heart of this is the fact that when someone gives you control and asks you to run a department you should have your lines set when it comes to what you have power to do and don't. There should also be a system of checks and blances so if things aren't were they should be a realistic check list should be disscussed. If they are going to completely overhaul your dept. they should work with you no just rip it and leave you to clean up the mess. Iam also tired of the one that gets "experemented" on first so they can "work out the bugs" I also have a whole new batch of reasons to get the fuck out of my two jobs and chose a new life. This experence broke me. But I was strong enough to see this thru, and I am all the more determined to make all these new changes work. My name is John and I am determined to make myself and my world better, and all my mistakes are honest ones and I am a HARD worker. I will bend like the reed and snap at the face of my bosses untill they respect me and are bleeding profusely. Like I tell my students I am not a pussy.