It's 2:16 as I write this...
I feel strange tonight. I can't focus. It's strange you know. I've never been used to needing someone around. Deidra went home earlier, and I felt pretty lonesome without her. I mean I know she gets angry sometimes and such but that doesn't mean I don't want her around...
I get angry too. It's not fair to say she's got all the problems because she doesn't. I probably have just as many. But are a few simple things too much to ask for? I wish she'd control her anger... And I definitely wish we made love more often. I know with her bladder infection and other problems having sex wouldda hurt, and I understand that but.. I dunno. She uses that kinda excuse a lot though. "Would you wanna have sex too if it hurt?" Well... yeah. If it made my partner happy. I mean I go through some pain (maybe not as much as her) to get her off but...
It's 2:20 now. I can't feel my eyes. I don't wanna lose Deidra. She's all I have. I told her a thousand times if I lost her... I don't know what I'd do with myself.
Relationships are supposed to be different. Life is supposed to be different. I just want a world where everyone cares about me. Just as I care about them... But I get the short end of the stick. I get the shortest straw. I guess it's what I deserve. It's always what I deserve.
If you don't mind guys. I need to be alone. It's 2:26. I need drugs. I need to feel better. But there is no better for me... is there? I suppose not...
Random Quote(s):
Guild Master: "Are you a blessing..? or a curse..?
I get angry too. It's not fair to say she's got all the problems because she doesn't. I probably have just as many. But are a few simple things too much to ask for? I wish she'd control her anger... And I definitely wish we made love more often. I know with her bladder infection and other problems having sex wouldda hurt, and I understand that but.. I dunno. She uses that kinda excuse a lot though. "Would you wanna have sex too if it hurt?" Well... yeah. If it made my partner happy. I mean I go through some pain (maybe not as much as her) to get her off but...
It's 2:20 now. I can't feel my eyes. I don't wanna lose Deidra. She's all I have. I told her a thousand times if I lost her... I don't know what I'd do with myself.
Relationships are supposed to be different. Life is supposed to be different. I just want a world where everyone cares about me. Just as I care about them... But I get the short end of the stick. I get the shortest straw. I guess it's what I deserve. It's always what I deserve.
If you don't mind guys. I need to be alone. It's 2:26. I need drugs. I need to feel better. But there is no better for me... is there? I suppose not...
Random Quote(s):
Guild Master: "Are you a blessing..? or a curse..?