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"My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating."
Well Deidra is upset. She always seems to be lately. Somehow I always feel like i'm the reason why or that she wants me to fix it and there's no way I can. Or it's over something that she shouldn't be upset over in the first place and should just pick herself back up and try it again or try something different. I can't just TELL her to do that because she doesn't understand. And if you say something like this to her she immediately thinks that she'll just keep it to herself from now on and I don't want that, I just want her to realize that she shouldn't be so upset about it. Or she'll think it's an insult to her and get even more depressed.
Oi... sometimes I need a vacation from myself for a while. But then I'd get bored. I seem to get bored when no one is around so.. I'd go insane probably. Which isn't such a bad thing I suppose.
Deidra always says how she hates things and I see her happy maybe 20% of the time we're together, anymore...I have to make her feel better practically everytime we meet. It wouldn't be so bad I guess if it wasn't over the same thing every time. Like how she hates her house and wishes we had our own place... or how she thinks she's a bad artist when SHE ISN'T. She thinks she it just cuz I don't say things like "God I hate you" when she draws something good. Why would I say that to her anyway? She doesn't seem to understand that I only do that to people when i really DO hate them for their drawing skills vs my crappy ones. I couldn't hate HER because I'm gonna MARRY her. See the problem?
Well this journal entry is sure full of ranting... perhaps overfull... I'm gonna need a bucket. A bucket and a thirsty fat man. Hold my calls.
Random Thought(s):
"If a one-eyed pirate winks... is he blinking? And if a one-eyed pirate blinks... is he winking? Hmm.."
Well Deidra is upset. She always seems to be lately. Somehow I always feel like i'm the reason why or that she wants me to fix it and there's no way I can. Or it's over something that she shouldn't be upset over in the first place and should just pick herself back up and try it again or try something different. I can't just TELL her to do that because she doesn't understand. And if you say something like this to her she immediately thinks that she'll just keep it to herself from now on and I don't want that, I just want her to realize that she shouldn't be so upset about it. Or she'll think it's an insult to her and get even more depressed.
Oi... sometimes I need a vacation from myself for a while. But then I'd get bored. I seem to get bored when no one is around so.. I'd go insane probably. Which isn't such a bad thing I suppose.
Deidra always says how she hates things and I see her happy maybe 20% of the time we're together, anymore...I have to make her feel better practically everytime we meet. It wouldn't be so bad I guess if it wasn't over the same thing every time. Like how she hates her house and wishes we had our own place... or how she thinks she's a bad artist when SHE ISN'T. She thinks she it just cuz I don't say things like "God I hate you" when she draws something good. Why would I say that to her anyway? She doesn't seem to understand that I only do that to people when i really DO hate them for their drawing skills vs my crappy ones. I couldn't hate HER because I'm gonna MARRY her. See the problem?
Well this journal entry is sure full of ranting... perhaps overfull... I'm gonna need a bucket. A bucket and a thirsty fat man. Hold my calls.
Random Thought(s):
"If a one-eyed pirate winks... is he blinking? And if a one-eyed pirate blinks... is he winking? Hmm.."