good grief
im so fucked up right now. . .me and my exgirlfriend heather talked for the first time in a while today and she told me she had been chillin wit her ex-ex boyfriend....i was so upset i didnt even get out of bed today i hate feeling like that. . .i was so fucked up in the head all day so i called our mutual friend doob and asked her to call her and tell her i miss her and i love her and im sorry for everything....a few minutes later heather called me and we were talking, working out some stuff and it was going ok. . .when suddenly she said "i dont want you to get mad...but i was at a slumber party at robs last nite. . ." now this might not seem like a big deal cuz we aint together right...but we broke up twice in the past month because she stayed at this dude robs crib while we were going out, new years eve was one of the two occasions...i mean sleeping down there was one of the main reasons we broke up yet she stayed down there last nite too......
now im not saying i have completely clean hands cuz the other day, we were broken up mind you, i was chillin wit a girl i met at a bar tryin to get my mind off heather cuz she hurt me so bad and i just wanted to be done wit all.....we ended up getting a lil personal and afterwards, i felt TERRIBLE, i realized how much she meant to me and that i had to try to get back together with her and make things better and make our relationship good again...
well after heather telling me about the "slumber party" i decided to come clean wit my experience...well long story short...too late i know. . .she got off the phone and was not happy and ill probably never talk to her again. . .i love her with all my heart and well....
now im not saying i have completely clean hands cuz the other day, we were broken up mind you, i was chillin wit a girl i met at a bar tryin to get my mind off heather cuz she hurt me so bad and i just wanted to be done wit all.....we ended up getting a lil personal and afterwards, i felt TERRIBLE, i realized how much she meant to me and that i had to try to get back together with her and make things better and make our relationship good again...
well after heather telling me about the "slumber party" i decided to come clean wit my experience...well long story short...too late i know. . .she got off the phone and was not happy and ill probably never talk to her again. . .i love her with all my heart and well....