Paul..what am I going to do with you.
The only person besides JR that's knows what I'm going thru is my co-worker Paul. He's 28, been married before, smart as all hell, and is the finest asian(vietnamese) man I've met. Paul is also going out of town with me...smh! So last nite we were talking on the phone about how do I continue on after my pride has been hurt(within this marriage). He simply stated "look babygirl you're not the easiest person to be around. It takes a special man to tame your stallion ass. If its meant to be it will be. Don't force cause that will push you all farther apart." THAT IS THE F*CKING TRUTH.
I'm not moving to California until after my birthday and that's if I choose to move. I'm skeptical about going as is. The idea has to grow on me. And.......I'm not going the extra mile in this marriage anymore...because the idea popped in my head...would he be able to do what I do if I started acting like him...NO!
No more 60/40 with me and him...if its not 50/50 on both parts..I'm gone.
I'm leaving for Richmond in about a hour...leaving my car at Paul's and riding with him. D isn't too pleased bout that either. I heard him grunt while I was talking to Paul. Why should I drive there when someone else is willing? And I'm not sleeping him either(although my alter-ego is dying to)because I have enough drama in my life...
You would think I'd be finished packing by now....nope! Lemme go finish
I'm not moving to California until after my birthday and that's if I choose to move. I'm skeptical about going as is. The idea has to grow on me. And.......I'm not going the extra mile in this marriage anymore...because the idea popped in my head...would he be able to do what I do if I started acting like him...NO!
No more 60/40 with me and him...if its not 50/50 on both parts..I'm gone.
I'm leaving for Richmond in about a hour...leaving my car at Paul's and riding with him. D isn't too pleased bout that either. I heard him grunt while I was talking to Paul. Why should I drive there when someone else is willing? And I'm not sleeping him either(although my alter-ego is dying to)because I have enough drama in my life...
You would think I'd be finished packing by now....nope! Lemme go finish