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I've decided to update again and change my layout with my new me. After talking to so many people, they made me realize that I shoudln't throw everything out the window just because of one thing. Instead of taking off just yet, I'm staying here at home for a bit more before running off and becoming something new. I'm not sure what I'm looking for, but I'm sure I'll find it at some point in life, I sure hope I do. I'm so confused about what I'm supposed to be, should I be the perfect kid marrying at 21, become the doctor I want to be, or be something someone else wants. I'm tired of being what I'm not though, why can't I just be Nora and have people love Nora. I'm so confused about what I'm supposed to be or do, why can't I just be me and let it go with that :(
Oh, one good thing from tonight, I did some thinking and I'm not dropping Sasha. People made me see important things and I've decided to keep her for a bit more. AC friends I'll just update her journal once in a while and talk to the "special" people. I don't know how I'll do with that, but I'll survive I guess. I just feel awkard doing this sl that really made me upset. People don't understand it, but it makes me relive things and days, it just makes me really sad and upset...I can't explain it really except it makes me depressed. At first it brought such joy to my life, except now, I'm so terribley depressed about the whole thing and just it makes my whole life seem more like it's in a little dark rain cloud.
School begins in less than a month now, and I'm still getting some of my crap done that I need to turn in for September with school. College shit should be interesting, I'm just going for every little thing I can think of to become something I'm not even more than I already am. Isn't life depressing?
Anyways - I'm outta here and people, shoot me please!
Oh, one good thing from tonight, I did some thinking and I'm not dropping Sasha. People made me see important things and I've decided to keep her for a bit more. AC friends I'll just update her journal once in a while and talk to the "special" people. I don't know how I'll do with that, but I'll survive I guess. I just feel awkard doing this sl that really made me upset. People don't understand it, but it makes me relive things and days, it just makes me really sad and upset...I can't explain it really except it makes me depressed. At first it brought such joy to my life, except now, I'm so terribley depressed about the whole thing and just it makes my whole life seem more like it's in a little dark rain cloud.
School begins in less than a month now, and I'm still getting some of my crap done that I need to turn in for September with school. College shit should be interesting, I'm just going for every little thing I can think of to become something I'm not even more than I already am. Isn't life depressing?
Anyways - I'm outta here and people, shoot me please!