the blood of the vains
well i am back. i haven't wrote in this shit for a while. and there is a reason. everyime i write in here it is always sadness. well i have been happy but now i am sad again. i feel unwanted. at first i was ok with it i mean hey i am going to college. but little by little it ate at me and now i fall down like an old tree. i just finish crying. no one calls, talks , on even visits. and some people are still holding on to something i did in the past that i am not proud of. i have changed. i have proven it and yet people still want blood. so i am gonna give it to you. i am going to california and goign to disapear. i mean i have lost alot of weight so i am disappearing physicly. so i will be good soon. so just pretend i died and leave me alone.