The Kid
Dear Romance,
I still don't know about my father. He hasn't gotten his appointment. I'm starting to wonder if he did this to freak me out. I don't honestly know him well enough to be able to tell. I know him professionally. That is to say - as a father. He dealt punishments and paid the bills. That's it. But, that was so 13 years ago. Now he's the guy who is always proud of me and thinks I'm extremely intelligent. He's the minister who doesn't speak to me about being attracted to men. Not once. In 13 years. I'm lucky if my mom will stop bitching at me for a few minutes on the issue.
I don't understand my relation ship with my father, Romance. It's hard to tell. I love him highly. I always will. But, it's difficult to think of what I should do about this. I'm aweful with emotions. Even after Cameron. It's like I can sense them much better now, but the response is always lacking. I'm too distracted by success and acheivement. I can't stop and feel what everyone around me is feeling. Part of me thinks that's what Hell would be like. Only worse, the emotions would all be irrational. Like some re-run of the Real Housewives of (Insert semi-exotic locale) constantly playing.
I will wait out this week I guess. At the risk of mentally paying for it later. But, this is just effing weird.
I prefer to deal with my family the way I deal with my ex's... throw money at them, spend no time with them, and speak as little as possible. Yeah, okay, so maybe that's not me... but sounds like a guy with a good idea.
Good night, Romance.
Always,
Robert
I still don't know about my father. He hasn't gotten his appointment. I'm starting to wonder if he did this to freak me out. I don't honestly know him well enough to be able to tell. I know him professionally. That is to say - as a father. He dealt punishments and paid the bills. That's it. But, that was so 13 years ago. Now he's the guy who is always proud of me and thinks I'm extremely intelligent. He's the minister who doesn't speak to me about being attracted to men. Not once. In 13 years. I'm lucky if my mom will stop bitching at me for a few minutes on the issue.
I don't understand my relation ship with my father, Romance. It's hard to tell. I love him highly. I always will. But, it's difficult to think of what I should do about this. I'm aweful with emotions. Even after Cameron. It's like I can sense them much better now, but the response is always lacking. I'm too distracted by success and acheivement. I can't stop and feel what everyone around me is feeling. Part of me thinks that's what Hell would be like. Only worse, the emotions would all be irrational. Like some re-run of the Real Housewives of (Insert semi-exotic locale) constantly playing.
I will wait out this week I guess. At the risk of mentally paying for it later. But, this is just effing weird.
I prefer to deal with my family the way I deal with my ex's... throw money at them, spend no time with them, and speak as little as possible. Yeah, okay, so maybe that's not me... but sounds like a guy with a good idea.
Good night, Romance.
Always,
Robert