In a rut
I've been in a little bit of a creativity rut recently, and I'm starting to feel the effects of it I think.
I've not really had the time or dedication recently to actually sit down and create something. Part of it is just wanting to veg out after work, part of it is other things happening like the move coming up and such. But I've been thinking and my life has been getting more and more in a rut recently.
From my own code perspective, I have some great ideas and visions of what I want to do, some ideas that will be well received, and would really be fun to write. But I just can't bring myself to sit down and work out the appropriate plan of attack, methodologies to use and most importantly, to actually write the code.
On other fronts, over the past few years I've become more or less a hermit. I know it bugs tanthe, but it also bugs me a little. Partially because I'm not using my own time for creative purposes, it seems like I'm wasting my own time. The majority of my circle of friends has left the area - we still keep in touch online, but there is nothing like going somewhere or inviting people over for tea. Or even better, going out and doing things like bunker crawling or something as simple as going for dinner and a movie. But the worse part is we've not really made much effort to make new friends in the area - and part of that is just not putting the effort in to seek other people out.
As a concequence, my life has become rather boring. I'm sure there is plenty around to do and see, even relatively locally, but we don't do or see any of it. And without someone else to say 'hey, lets go do X', I tend to not do anything. Even when I did organize things before, I would often end up having to cancel it because of lack of attendence (I once organized a picnic in a park for 20-30 colleagues + their families, even got the permit and such - 1 colleague and his family showed up).
But even other things in life are kind of getting me down - for example a lack of permanence - I really dislike renting, its like flushing money down the toilet - its dead money. But I don't have the financial backing yet to be able to get a mortgage without paying PMI (mortgage insurance, which is pricey), and I'm unsure of the housing market right now because I keep getting conflicting reports about it being both a bad time and a good time to buy. Plus I would like to move back to Australia at some point in the future, and having to sell a house to do it can make things tough - especially if you've not been in it long enough (or the market has a downturn) so you lose most or all of your capital investment.
I even have a Gym membership now through work, its very convenient, just down the elevator. But I never go because I either have to wake up earlier and go to work earlier (but I'm not a morning person) or I have to go after work, and usually I just want to go home at that point. Its pure laziness and excuses, I know, but I just can't seem to shake it. Concequently my health is suffering since I'm not controlling my weight either with exercise or conciously eating better (or preferably both) - and again, its because I am failing to motovate myself to do such things.
How does one shake the curse of laziness?
I've not really had the time or dedication recently to actually sit down and create something. Part of it is just wanting to veg out after work, part of it is other things happening like the move coming up and such. But I've been thinking and my life has been getting more and more in a rut recently.
From my own code perspective, I have some great ideas and visions of what I want to do, some ideas that will be well received, and would really be fun to write. But I just can't bring myself to sit down and work out the appropriate plan of attack, methodologies to use and most importantly, to actually write the code.
On other fronts, over the past few years I've become more or less a hermit. I know it bugs tanthe, but it also bugs me a little. Partially because I'm not using my own time for creative purposes, it seems like I'm wasting my own time. The majority of my circle of friends has left the area - we still keep in touch online, but there is nothing like going somewhere or inviting people over for tea. Or even better, going out and doing things like bunker crawling or something as simple as going for dinner and a movie. But the worse part is we've not really made much effort to make new friends in the area - and part of that is just not putting the effort in to seek other people out.
As a concequence, my life has become rather boring. I'm sure there is plenty around to do and see, even relatively locally, but we don't do or see any of it. And without someone else to say 'hey, lets go do X', I tend to not do anything. Even when I did organize things before, I would often end up having to cancel it because of lack of attendence (I once organized a picnic in a park for 20-30 colleagues + their families, even got the permit and such - 1 colleague and his family showed up).
But even other things in life are kind of getting me down - for example a lack of permanence - I really dislike renting, its like flushing money down the toilet - its dead money. But I don't have the financial backing yet to be able to get a mortgage without paying PMI (mortgage insurance, which is pricey), and I'm unsure of the housing market right now because I keep getting conflicting reports about it being both a bad time and a good time to buy. Plus I would like to move back to Australia at some point in the future, and having to sell a house to do it can make things tough - especially if you've not been in it long enough (or the market has a downturn) so you lose most or all of your capital investment.
I even have a Gym membership now through work, its very convenient, just down the elevator. But I never go because I either have to wake up earlier and go to work earlier (but I'm not a morning person) or I have to go after work, and usually I just want to go home at that point. Its pure laziness and excuses, I know, but I just can't seem to shake it. Concequently my health is suffering since I'm not controlling my weight either with exercise or conciously eating better (or preferably both) - and again, its because I am failing to motovate myself to do such things.
How does one shake the curse of laziness?