A Slippery Slope
New chapters. Had my final day at the college and started on Saturday at the new massage parlor. I gave four and a half hours of massage. In that amount of time, racked up $51 in tips. Not bad. It was tiring physically, my hands throbbed for an hour after my shift. But I was at the same time very energized and ready to go dancing.
Lauren and I attempted a night out. We danced a wee bit, but mostly smoked a baby blunt, walked around downtown, and people watched while getting caught up. Stayed out till 2:30. I just can't hang out in bars for more than 20 minutes... such a zap of energy, vital energy, that is most often used in expansion. Blah.
I'm feeling a bit anxious and worried. It's been two months now with D and I am adoring him more and more. I suppose I could bring it up and get his current side of where this may be going, but I'm afraid of what the answers may be. He has been taking space this past weekend and I missed him terribly. He has a lot going on and I can understand one's need for oneself. But where does that leave me?
Merry comes and merry goes and merry comes around again...
Lauren and I attempted a night out. We danced a wee bit, but mostly smoked a baby blunt, walked around downtown, and people watched while getting caught up. Stayed out till 2:30. I just can't hang out in bars for more than 20 minutes... such a zap of energy, vital energy, that is most often used in expansion. Blah.
I'm feeling a bit anxious and worried. It's been two months now with D and I am adoring him more and more. I suppose I could bring it up and get his current side of where this may be going, but I'm afraid of what the answers may be. He has been taking space this past weekend and I missed him terribly. He has a lot going on and I can understand one's need for oneself. But where does that leave me?
Merry comes and merry goes and merry comes around again...