Friends and asswholes alike
So I've given up trying to make friends with anyone, especially in the ddr community. everyone seems to think I do nothing but cause problems, and everyone has some sort of grudge against me. I can't control it I don't know whats wrong with me but I'm not willing to change for these people because I think they have more problems than I do.
First, the whole thing with steve. Long story short he tried to have sex with me and I said no and I'm mad at him for even trying. He also thinks I blamed him for stealing from swiz and shoh and I don't, all I know is I didn't do it, instead and I have proof he blamed me. I let it slide because I know I'm geniune. Unlike him I am willing to be mature and get over it for the sake that I want to see my friends whom he is around 90% of the time, I can't control this.
Next,Cory and Shaunna. Cory is my friend, and I love him to death and care about him a bunch. I was there for him for the whole Kim thing and his happiness is important to me. I made a mistake, I told cory something shaunna did a while back and I shouldn't have, but I didn't mean to get in between them or make shaunna look bad I like them both and I'm happy for them. I shouldn't have opened my stupid mouth and it's really something Shaunna should have told him,not me it wasn't my place and I understand that.Cory and I talked and everything seemed fine, but not to Shaunna I suppose.
Today, I was going to go with Jamis and them to GOM, me and Jamis made the decisson that I could come with a few days back...
----- 01:11 am -----
PixeliciousFresh: are you going to dayton soon
FireProofPaJamis: yeah, probably next weekish
FireProofPaJamis: tomorrow i have to go to arena foosball
PixeliciousFresh: take me with you
PixeliciousFresh: pleease
PixeliciousFresh: god
FireProofPaJamis: you want take
PixeliciousFresh: please
PixeliciousFresh: :<
FireProofPaJamis: ok
PixeliciousFresh: do
PixeliciousFresh: yay
FireProofPaJamis: but you have to behave
FireProofPaJamis: no murders
PixeliciousFresh: i promise
PixeliciousFresh: what day are you going
FireProofPaJamis: probably wednesdayish?
FireProofPaJamis: i miss hanging out, and i kind of feel like
FireProofPaJamis: at least once i should hang out with you
FireProofPaJamis: even if it means steve can't go
well guess what day it is? YEAH guess whos going? YEAH.. not me. now Jamis said he worked something out where Steve would drive seprately since he can't even be a man and handle being in the car with me. I told Jamis I proably wasn't gonna go because it was the fourth day in a row we were gonna hang out but it didn't work out. He proceeded to try and convince me to go so I said okay, packed my things and got ready to go. Before Jamis comes to pick me up he tells me I shouldn't go because Shaunna txt'ed him and told him not to bring me.
I got really upset, I don't understand all I'm trying to do is make some new friends but people are acting like their tweleve and everyone but me is getting there way. If she had such a problem I don't see why she doesn't just talk to me about it instead of getting everyone else involved in something that doesn't even matter!
so I am basically comming to terms that being friends with these people just isn't worth it,they don't give a dead mooses last shit about me and proably never will. it hurts, it hurts really bad but I don't know what else to do. I'm so lonely in the friends department, I still have my good ol' pals I'll never let go of so if you've read this far don't get offended I still love you! I just want to make some new friends because I'm getting older and tired of the same old thing.
*BIG ASS SIGH*
I might still make it to Dayton and see Johnny,which is what I was gonna do after GOM but I'm just going to do it instead. thats right, I said do it.
First, the whole thing with steve. Long story short he tried to have sex with me and I said no and I'm mad at him for even trying. He also thinks I blamed him for stealing from swiz and shoh and I don't, all I know is I didn't do it, instead and I have proof he blamed me. I let it slide because I know I'm geniune. Unlike him I am willing to be mature and get over it for the sake that I want to see my friends whom he is around 90% of the time, I can't control this.
Next,Cory and Shaunna. Cory is my friend, and I love him to death and care about him a bunch. I was there for him for the whole Kim thing and his happiness is important to me. I made a mistake, I told cory something shaunna did a while back and I shouldn't have, but I didn't mean to get in between them or make shaunna look bad I like them both and I'm happy for them. I shouldn't have opened my stupid mouth and it's really something Shaunna should have told him,not me it wasn't my place and I understand that.Cory and I talked and everything seemed fine, but not to Shaunna I suppose.
Today, I was going to go with Jamis and them to GOM, me and Jamis made the decisson that I could come with a few days back...
----- 01:11 am -----
PixeliciousFresh: are you going to dayton soon
FireProofPaJamis: yeah, probably next weekish
FireProofPaJamis: tomorrow i have to go to arena foosball
PixeliciousFresh: take me with you
PixeliciousFresh: pleease
PixeliciousFresh: god
FireProofPaJamis: you want take
PixeliciousFresh: please
PixeliciousFresh: :<
FireProofPaJamis: ok
PixeliciousFresh: do
PixeliciousFresh: yay
FireProofPaJamis: but you have to behave
FireProofPaJamis: no murders
PixeliciousFresh: i promise
PixeliciousFresh: what day are you going
FireProofPaJamis: probably wednesdayish?
FireProofPaJamis: i miss hanging out, and i kind of feel like
FireProofPaJamis: at least once i should hang out with you
FireProofPaJamis: even if it means steve can't go
well guess what day it is? YEAH guess whos going? YEAH.. not me. now Jamis said he worked something out where Steve would drive seprately since he can't even be a man and handle being in the car with me. I told Jamis I proably wasn't gonna go because it was the fourth day in a row we were gonna hang out but it didn't work out. He proceeded to try and convince me to go so I said okay, packed my things and got ready to go. Before Jamis comes to pick me up he tells me I shouldn't go because Shaunna txt'ed him and told him not to bring me.
I got really upset, I don't understand all I'm trying to do is make some new friends but people are acting like their tweleve and everyone but me is getting there way. If she had such a problem I don't see why she doesn't just talk to me about it instead of getting everyone else involved in something that doesn't even matter!
so I am basically comming to terms that being friends with these people just isn't worth it,they don't give a dead mooses last shit about me and proably never will. it hurts, it hurts really bad but I don't know what else to do. I'm so lonely in the friends department, I still have my good ol' pals I'll never let go of so if you've read this far don't get offended I still love you! I just want to make some new friends because I'm getting older and tired of the same old thing.
*BIG ASS SIGH*
I might still make it to Dayton and see Johnny,which is what I was gonna do after GOM but I'm just going to do it instead. thats right, I said do it.