update
so lets see. what's new. ummmm. my swedish family is here. its so cool. the first time i've met them. they're really nice n cool. i'm really happy that i've meet them. they're gonna be here till friday. then they go to florida to be with my bitchy aunt n grandma. but o well. johan said he'd come back next year. n my dad wants to go there next year. so i cant wait. we're also talkin bout having me go n stay there for awhile. i wanna move there. been learning a lot about sweden. n it's really nice. not much different from here. u just gotta pay some more taxes. but the difference is here u pay taxes n maybe get some money back. there u pay taxes n u get money back n tons of other stuff. so i wanna move there. now lol. but it's fun being with them right now. we went to point on saturday. n went up to ny on sunday. monday we went to freehold mall. now 2day they're gonna go back to ny. but it's all fun. yay! lol.... umm my beer is gonna be all finished by wednesday! hurray. it already tastes good. now its carbonating so it might taste better. cant want for that. 5 gallons of beer. lol. amazing lol.... hmmm. anything else. ummm. school is pretty much done. i have 4 papers due by 3 2day. 2 papers due by may 6th. n a few labs n a test due in comp next week. then i'm done. for 2 weeks lol. then i go back for speech class. yay. fucking speech. o well. one less class to take in the fall. but i should have my criminal justice degree in may. so that's good..... i'm kinda gonna give up on that girl from panera. it was stupid for me to think that any girl would like me. it obvious that i'll never have a gf again. n it's kinda sad that i still have feelings for steph too. o well. i'll figure out how to get rid of them too. weird that i dont have feelings for jess anymore. i mean she's still my best friend n i care about her a lot. but i dont have romantic emotions for her anymore. funny what u can do when u just stop n relax n think. now i just gotta finish that with steph. n get rid of all these fake ideas that any girl will like me. ik the next time i go to panera which will probably me 2morrow i'll see her. n we'll talk. n i'll probably ask her what she's doing later. n then we'll say we'll call each other. n then the same thing will happen. she doesnt call n i text her n she doesnt respond. of course i dont even know what to do. i'm not good at this whole dating thing anyway. in the past lets see. either i already knew the girl like veronica n kristin. luke was there like steph n lexi. so i dont do good on my own. i dont know what the hell to do. every time i even tried to date a girl someone was there. luke or paul or renee. i dunno. part of me says just give up n the other says try idiot. i dunno. i'll have 2morrow night off again so i'll see if we actually hang out..... anything else. umm not really. i gotta do my papers now lol. well yea. peace out
revolution!
revolution!