ramblings of a drunk
who am i? please someone tell me who i am. i have no idea anymore. it seems that i'm a different person around every person. i'm not one person. i'm like a hundred different people. i dont understand it. who am i? have i created so many masks that i've killed who i really am? have i made it impossible to find who i really am? please someone tell me who i am. i cant figure it out. am i evil? am i good? am i dead? am i living? i'm so lost....
i can't live in this world anymore. society and all their lies. i cant stand it anymore. it's annoying me so much. this social norm is gonna kill me. u have to be like everyone else. u have to get an education. u have to find someone. u have to have a family. u have to have a good job. u have to get a house. u have to do this. n u have to do that. i hate it. dont tell me what i have to do. dont tell me who i have to be. i hate it. i hate this society. i hate this whole thing that u have to do this to live. no. they're wrong. if u do it. if u follow the sheep then all ur doing is dieing. ur following the sheep to the slaughter. that's what this society is. i'm sick of it. i want to be the shepard. i want to be the one to free some of the sheep n save their lives. i want to be free. i want to live. i dont want to keep going alone with this society. this government n all governments r just lieing to u. they're just trying to turn u into mindless machines that they can use. they want to stop the free thinkers. they want to control us all. n i'm sick of it. i'm sick of it all. i want to leave. i want to run away n never look back. but i cant. not yet....
why am i so depressed? why am i so sad? why cant i feel happy? why cant i get a gf? why cant i find a reason to live? why cant i find a reason to keep going on? why cant i find a reason to wake up in the morning? why cant i just live? why cant i just escape this horrible feeling? please someone help me. please. anyone. please. or atleast kill me....
i can't live in this world anymore. society and all their lies. i cant stand it anymore. it's annoying me so much. this social norm is gonna kill me. u have to be like everyone else. u have to get an education. u have to find someone. u have to have a family. u have to have a good job. u have to get a house. u have to do this. n u have to do that. i hate it. dont tell me what i have to do. dont tell me who i have to be. i hate it. i hate this society. i hate this whole thing that u have to do this to live. no. they're wrong. if u do it. if u follow the sheep then all ur doing is dieing. ur following the sheep to the slaughter. that's what this society is. i'm sick of it. i want to be the shepard. i want to be the one to free some of the sheep n save their lives. i want to be free. i want to live. i dont want to keep going alone with this society. this government n all governments r just lieing to u. they're just trying to turn u into mindless machines that they can use. they want to stop the free thinkers. they want to control us all. n i'm sick of it. i'm sick of it all. i want to leave. i want to run away n never look back. but i cant. not yet....
why am i so depressed? why am i so sad? why cant i feel happy? why cant i get a gf? why cant i find a reason to live? why cant i find a reason to keep going on? why cant i find a reason to wake up in the morning? why cant i just live? why cant i just escape this horrible feeling? please someone help me. please. anyone. please. or atleast kill me....