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wow what a day... snow is fun. so yea. got up and helped my dad clean the driveway. then went out joy riding. by then ofcourse the damn plows got rid of most the snow. but i found a parking lot by kohls that was still under. so i was having fun in there. then another jeep shows up and starts having fun too. he pulls out and i go over and talk to him. cool dude. old guy too. haha. then went to nicci's. got her and kimm and went out joy riding again. went back to that parking lot and spun around. then another jeep shows up and starts doin the same thing. haha. then we both leave. and nicci, kimm and me go to renee's and help her clean the cars. then took nicci and kimm home. hung with renee and went lookin for places to have fun. went to the howell but that was plowed. went to the golf course and had some fun. then a plow guy came and freaked out. so we left. went back to her house. brian showed up. we went and go liquor and went back to his house. my liquor fell and broke. fucking ass bag. then we went got pizza and went to renee's. then back to jones's house. watched tv. the crow came on watched that. then we watched porn. then went and played in the snow. and yea now i'm back home. fun day........ ok. i have to do this. this part is for jaime bc i made her feel bad from what i wrote in my other entry. ok. i'm sorry bout what i wrote. i'm gonna be completly honest with u bc i have been since we started hanging out. i like u. i like u a lot. something inside me though keeps tellin me not to trust u. i don't know y. it's just like little things that happen make me think that. like when u told lexi what we did. y? y did u tell her? u know that her and me don't get along. what did u expect to happen. her being like o ok have fun. i could of told u that she'd freak. but it's like i dunno. i do like u. and i don't wanna lose u as a friend. and i don't wanna lose u as whatever we've been. and i know what i wrote was dick. but ur not a whore. i've been in a wierd ass mood for awhile now. no one really knows it. or believes it. but it's like. i've been dicked over by so many girls. and i don't want that to happen again. and i keep gettin a feeling that's gonna happen with u. i dunno y. but it's just thoughts that come into my mind. and on this damn thing i just write whatever comes to my mind not caring bout what it might mean to others. i know what i said was kinda dick. but that's what i was feeling at that time. i'm not sayin ur a whore. i was just saying that u have other guys that u can chill with. and i'm not really a part of ur life. i'm outside. just like everyone else. i'm never actually a part of anyone's life. never was and never will be. i'm sorry for what i wrote. so u can hate me if u want. i don't care. i deserve u to hate him. i just want u to know that i do like u. and there's just been things that u've confused me with so badly. and i just don't understand u at all. one minute u act like u like me then the other u don't. i'm fuckin confused over here. and no one can help me. and for some weird reason i keep gettin these thoughts that u and lexi have a plan or something to get back at me. i dunno. ok. well that's the honest truth on what's been goin on in my head. i'm confused as hell bc i really like u but i don't know if i can trust u bc how u act sometimes. so i dunno. this is probably goodbye then. sooooo yea. i dunno. i'll cya around i guess...... peace everyone...
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