i'm buzzed again lol
yea. i'm a little buzzed. haha. i dunno. been drinkin smirnoff vanilla and rootbeer. they taste good. and just to say i'm like typing really bad but i'm retyping so it looks good. lol. i dunno. haha. yea... sooo the weekend was fun. friday renee and ross came over and we went up to the poconos for the weekend. snowboarded. i bailed a bunch of times. screwed up my right knee pretty badly. still boarded though. renee and ross did really good boarding. i need to go up more. probably go up on my own one of these weekends. i need more liquor. hello. i dunno. wow what am i talkin bout. o yea the weekend. umm. yea. it was fun. snowboarded. umm. nice place we stayed at. my parents looked at a bunch of places to buy. i dunno. whatever. umm the people there are really nice. liquor stores are wierd. they don't sell melt liquor or beer. u have to go to a beer store to get that. spirits doesn't sell any of it. lol. i dunno. what am i talkin bout again. ummm. weekend. yea. it was fun snowboarded. wow my face feels wierd. haha. i dunno. umm yea. that's bout it. really. saw jess at target 2day. hung with her for awhile. umm. nicci keeps yelling at me to do homework. i'm doing it. umm yea. i need a gf. any girls wanna go out with me? or atleast hook up with me? haha. i know i'll never get answer to that. no one reads this. and i'm buzzzzzzzed any way. wwwwait . ok yea. i'm ok. what was i sayin. umm. yea i need a gf b4 i leave for the military. bc i'm not passin brookdale. i'm really not in the mood for college right now. i dunno. i need some time to just like work. get some money. buy some lots or houses. get my life together. maybe probably join in the navy or army. for 4 years. then do the college thing. get a digree how u spell that i dunno in criminal justice. and history maybe. and become a cop for awhile. then retire. and just die alone. ofcourse that's if i even live past 21. i don't really think i am. o well. i really don't have any friends anymore. jamie we be brothers till the end but hell he got his new crew. we hardly chill. luke in the navy. paul in the navy. nicci she gonna be leavin in a year. renee is already gone. jess is already gone. kyo is gone. jen she gone pretty much. frankie does call or stop by. lil jamie i dunno what's going on with her. haven't talked to her for a few weeks. o well. i guess that's done. and i did like her. but o well. guess she didn't actually like me. hornby i haven't heard from for a few months. xc team is pretty much gone. a lot of them will be movin on at the end of this year. and the others really won't want me around and the new coach probably won't want me around. fca and st veronica's group. haha. that's done. they don't really want me around. all my other friends from my grade have moved on. the seniors now r all gonna move on. i have like no more friends. and if i have any they all gonna be gone by next year. hahaha. isn't that great. i'm gonna be all alone again. and i'm on probation right now at brookdale bc my gpa is lower then a 2.0. so yea. i'm gonna get kicked out of brookdale probably. haha. isn't that great. my parents are really gonna love me then. i'm gonna get kicked out of my house. my bro isn't gonna help me. soo yea. i dunno what to do with my life now. i'm tryin to live everyday like it's the last and like life goes on forever. i'm tryin to be happy. cop. but it's really not workin. i saw jess again 2day. and all my feelings for her came back. even though i know she doesn't like me. no one does. no one actually likes me as a friend. i really have no friends. everyone just deals with me bc i'm there. the best thing that could happen was would be for me to just leave. haha. here we go again. i'm just gonna stpop and aleave. it. night all. i got work in the morning. and i still gotta findish my difin finsic fis finsich i'm ilk i'll goe get it i'll get it. finidh d finish my homework. got it. i still gotta finish my homework. i cheated and deleted some letters bc i'ts pissin me off. yea well peas peace. yea well peace. i'm going to sleep once i wfinish my smirnoff. peace out all. even though no one reads this.
Erik
Erik