dad crap
Supposed to see my Dad this Friday.Then again he cancelled last week. I wish I wasn's this naive. I'm still planning on seeing him. Father's day was a BLAST as usual. My entire family has decided never to go to church on father's day again. The entire thing was about all these wonderful fathers. And it was preached about why we have to honor and respect them. Felt like I was going to Hell till Sean reminded me that my father is an infidel, and those rules therefor do not apply to me. I wish I could respect him. Not wishing that I could get over who he is, but wishing he was someone worthy of respect. My mom said yesterday that he's the one missing out. But how is someone missing out, if they don't miss what they're supposedly missing out on? If you don't love your child, if they are nothing to you but a little cash pulled out of your paycheck for child support...how are you the one less off? Doesn't make sense to me. I just hope he follows through ONCE in his life. Just once. Cause even if my dad will never be a dad, I wish he'd let me be a big sister. I can't wait till I get a license. Then I can go and get the kids, and actually spend time with them. The worst days are the ones where I can't even picture their faces. I look at photographs to remind me...