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I don't think I can take much more of this feeling I get in my stomach whenever I think of you and I, which is pretty much all the time. I'm not gonna lie, I feel like shit.
I feel like everything we've held onto so tightly for so long is slipping through my fingers like sand, and there's nothing i can do about it.
I wish I could just sit down and pinpoint one thing that has led both of us to being so unhappy right now with each other, but I've tried and it's impossible. Things are unbelievably different and I wish so desperately that I could just make everything like it was before when we thought absolutely nothing could stand in our way.
It's not even that we fight anymore... at least the fighting could be solved with a kiss, a hug, or an "I love you"... it's just that things feel so different and I yearn for things to be okay again.
Am I stupid for caring this much? Am I over-reacting? Should I just let it all go? Everything is so twisted and morphed in my head and I can't even get things straight.
I don't know if you care about how things are falling apart as much as I do, but I cry almost every day and toss and turn in bed thinking about what's happening. I may not show on the outside all the time, but inside I'm falling apart and I hate it. I need you, and that's the worst part. You've been my best friend for almost 10 months and no matter how much it hurts right now.. I'm in love with you.
I wish I knew where I went wrong and I wish things could be solved. I feel so insecure and vulnerable about all of this, and I hate this feeling and I wish things could just be okay again. I just want to kiss you, I just want you to tell me you love me again, like you did when you meant it, and I just want this feeling in my stomach to go away.
I feel like everything we've held onto so tightly for so long is slipping through my fingers like sand, and there's nothing i can do about it.
I wish I could just sit down and pinpoint one thing that has led both of us to being so unhappy right now with each other, but I've tried and it's impossible. Things are unbelievably different and I wish so desperately that I could just make everything like it was before when we thought absolutely nothing could stand in our way.
It's not even that we fight anymore... at least the fighting could be solved with a kiss, a hug, or an "I love you"... it's just that things feel so different and I yearn for things to be okay again.
Am I stupid for caring this much? Am I over-reacting? Should I just let it all go? Everything is so twisted and morphed in my head and I can't even get things straight.
I don't know if you care about how things are falling apart as much as I do, but I cry almost every day and toss and turn in bed thinking about what's happening. I may not show on the outside all the time, but inside I'm falling apart and I hate it. I need you, and that's the worst part. You've been my best friend for almost 10 months and no matter how much it hurts right now.. I'm in love with you.
I wish I knew where I went wrong and I wish things could be solved. I feel so insecure and vulnerable about all of this, and I hate this feeling and I wish things could just be okay again. I just want to kiss you, I just want you to tell me you love me again, like you did when you meant it, and I just want this feeling in my stomach to go away.