electro dots and contemplation
things that mean so much to me may seem insignificant to others. things I value may be worthless to some...I guess I just have to realize this. I have to quite my naivety and realize that the world around me is decaying and I am along with it. and the only way for me to really survive is to focus on a higher goal than the rest. Gosh I procrastinate so much it's really quite sad. I wish that I could have a non-tumultuous relationship with everyone and that they wouldn't think that all relationships suck...maybe if a little effort was protruding from their direction they wouldn't feel so uselessly degrading. strange thought huh?
I wish I knew how to fix brokenness but alas...I cannot...I don't have that power.
it seems as if everytime I open up to someone they step on me. they say "hey sarah, oh your feelings you ask? they are over there on the floor, see behind that box, I dropped them back a while ago..and still haven't picked them up. oops...sorry" I love the effort after the fact but that still isn't enough to keep our relationship carefree and thoughtful.
I don't want to make things harder. and I am an independent person. I don't need anyone. especially if they don't need me...or want me.
on a lighter note. fischer spooner was awesome!!!! actually though I think I jammed my toes wearing the most uncomfortable enzos ever.
jennifer...pssst...I'm done.
I wish I knew how to fix brokenness but alas...I cannot...I don't have that power.
it seems as if everytime I open up to someone they step on me. they say "hey sarah, oh your feelings you ask? they are over there on the floor, see behind that box, I dropped them back a while ago..and still haven't picked them up. oops...sorry" I love the effort after the fact but that still isn't enough to keep our relationship carefree and thoughtful.
I don't want to make things harder. and I am an independent person. I don't need anyone. especially if they don't need me...or want me.
on a lighter note. fischer spooner was awesome!!!! actually though I think I jammed my toes wearing the most uncomfortable enzos ever.
jennifer...pssst...I'm done.