life why?
lauren and i went to charlies grave yesterday.. i had a good time out there and all considering we always try to make it a cheerful experience but this time i was just sad the entire time.. underneath it all. I've been thinking about him so much lately and I still havent accepted the fact that i'll never hear him laugh again. I keep thinking its only a matter of weeks before everything is cool and i'll wake up and charlie will be back again... but I guess that just isn't going to happen. I'll have to accept that one day.. wait.. never.
then I ended up getting somewhat friendly with a boy. said boy and I are friendly for quite the time .. a few hours perhaps?... after we are friendly, boy offers me a cigarette and I take it.. I then go outside to smoke it. I come back inside, boy is gone.. does not return.
thanks a lot, jackass.
ah yes, and i've dropped my phone so far down into Lauren and Andy's couch there's no way in hell I can get it out.. jesus christ.
then I ended up getting somewhat friendly with a boy. said boy and I are friendly for quite the time .. a few hours perhaps?... after we are friendly, boy offers me a cigarette and I take it.. I then go outside to smoke it. I come back inside, boy is gone.. does not return.
thanks a lot, jackass.
ah yes, and i've dropped my phone so far down into Lauren and Andy's couch there's no way in hell I can get it out.. jesus christ.