adaptation

[prettyuglybefor]

do i have any original thought in my head
maybe if i were happier i wouldn't look this way
life is short, i need to make the most of it
today is the first day of the rest of my life
i'm a walking cliche
i really need to go to the doctor
there's something wrong
the dentist called again i'm way overdue
if i stopped putting things off, i'd be happier
all i do is sit on my fat ass
if my ass wasn't fat i'd be happier
i wouldn't have to wear these clothes all the time
like that's fooling anyone
fat ass. i should start jogging again
five miles a day
really do it this time. maybe rock climbing?
i need to turn my life around
What do i need to do? i need to fall in love
i need to have a boyfriend
i need to read more, improve myself
what if i learned russian or something?
or took up an instrument
i could speak chinese
i would be the screenwriter who speaks chinese
and plays the oboe
that would be cool
i should get a hair cut
stop trying to fool everyone
how pathetic is that
just be real. confident
isn't that what men are attracted to?