continued. . . ..prettysummerAugust 11 2003, 11:11:37 UTC
What do I get? Before you even say a simple hello you say "That's disgusting!" Referring to my peircing. That sure makes someone who isn't having the best week feel better, after being happy about it. Then I told you I was annoyed at you and you fuckin acted like you didn't even know me. You ignored what I said, made me look stupid in front of people I didn't know, and didn't even introduce me to your friends. Pretty fuckin rude to not introduce one of your friends, let alone ignore them.
Sunday I had to work till 5, but I was allowed to get off at 4 if it wasn't busy. Just my luck Ryan, it was busy. In fact, they wanted me to stay even later because one of the waitresses called out. Honestly, I had every intention of going to the concert. Why would I spend $85 on the tickets and not go? Would that make sense? I thought the concert was at 7, that was my honest mistake.. ..because I would have tried harder to at least call you earlier. My intentions were to call you the second I could talk to you about how I was kinda upset that you have been shady recently, but still had every intention of going. I told some friends I couldn't hang out because I was going to the concert with you, and I was LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I got out of work and I was right about to call you but my phone said I had a few new voicemails so I checked them first. Unfortunatly, all I here is "fuck you June, you're a fucking bitch and a fucking asshole and i fucking hate you I can't beleive you stood me up I never want to fucking talk to you again don't call me or im me or anything ladaladalaldaaldaa. . .etc.. " I was in shock. Complete shock. . ..not only was I puzzled as to what you ment by saying I stood you up or something, but shocked that you could ever say such words. I was really upset Ryan, and I didn't know what made you think that I would do that. I had to call you back. . .but you ignored my calls, and didn't even listen to my voicemails, or so I hear. You're saying I didn't have the common decency to call you? I did call you Ryan, and I left voicemails. ..YOU were just to stubborn and thick headed to talk to me or listen to what I had to say over this BIG misunderstanding. I got really fucking upset, and I really didn't need it. So much shit has been going on and my aunt is in the hospital for throat cancer and losing the friend that I need most right now just completed my shitty week. You weren't there at all though this and you didn't care just like you don't now. You won't even talk to me or listen to what I have to say. The only thing I'm hearing from you is how much of a shitty person I am for not getting out of work early, and I see that you're bringing anyone else you can into it as well. I'm not using work as an excuse, but I can't take off after having the whole week off. Once again, I had every intention of going. I called you back to make amends and go, I'm not going to let some stupid drama ruin one of the best friendships I've had. I've had people agree with me too Ryan, but I'm not bringing friends into this really. It's between US. Don't go saying this person thinks that and that person feels this after you go and brainwash them into thinking I'm a shitty person. I'm not doing that to you.. .I'm keeping most of what I have to say to myself and not really speaking of it to anyone. I can't beleive you want to discuss this over a livejournal for the whole world to see, but at least we might be getting through to eachother somehow because I don't want what we have to end. I don't hate you, what you said really really hurt, especially at a time like this, but I don't hate you over it. I don't think I could ever really hate you.
I'm sorry that you got the wrong impression, it wasn't what I hoped for. I hoped maybe you could be the least bit more understanding and we could have gone to the concert and had a good time.
I geuss this is all I have to say. I'm sorry things turned out the way they did. I'll miss you. I wish you would have not ripped up my card because every word of it was the truth. i love you ryan. bye.
Sunday I had to work till 5, but I was allowed to get off at 4 if it wasn't busy. Just my luck Ryan, it was busy. In fact, they wanted me to stay even later because one of the waitresses called out. Honestly, I had every intention of going to the concert. Why would I spend $85 on the tickets and not go? Would that make sense? I thought the concert was at 7, that was my honest mistake.. ..because I would have tried harder to at least call you earlier. My intentions were to call you the second I could talk to you about how I was kinda upset that you have been shady recently, but still had every intention of going. I told some friends I couldn't hang out because I was going to the concert with you, and I was LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I got out of work and I was right about to call you but my phone said I had a few new voicemails so I checked them first. Unfortunatly, all I here is "fuck you June, you're a fucking bitch and a fucking asshole and i fucking hate you I can't beleive you stood me up I never want to fucking talk to you again don't call me or im me or anything ladaladalaldaaldaa. . .etc.. " I was in shock. Complete shock. . ..not only was I puzzled as to what you ment by saying I stood you up or something, but shocked that you could ever say such words. I was really upset Ryan, and I didn't know what made you think that I would do that. I had to call you back. . .but you ignored my calls, and didn't even listen to my voicemails, or so I hear. You're saying I didn't have the common decency to call you? I did call you Ryan, and I left voicemails. ..YOU were just to stubborn and thick headed to talk to me or listen to what I had to say over this BIG misunderstanding. I got really fucking upset, and I really didn't need it. So much shit has been going on and my aunt is in the hospital for throat cancer and losing the friend that I need most right now just completed my shitty week. You weren't there at all though this and you didn't care just like you don't now. You won't even talk to me or listen to what I have to say. The only thing I'm hearing from you is how much of a shitty person I am for not getting out of work early, and I see that you're bringing anyone else you can into it as well. I'm not using work as an excuse, but I can't take off after having the whole week off. Once again, I had every intention of going. I called you back to make amends and go, I'm not going to let some stupid drama ruin one of the best friendships I've had.
I've had people agree with me too Ryan, but I'm not bringing friends into this really. It's between US. Don't go saying this person thinks that and that person feels this after you go and brainwash them into thinking I'm a shitty person. I'm not doing that to you.. .I'm keeping most of what I have to say to myself and not really speaking of it to anyone. I can't beleive you want to discuss this over a livejournal for the whole world to see, but at least we might be getting through to eachother somehow because I don't want what we have to end. I don't hate you, what you said really really hurt, especially at a time like this, but I don't hate you over it. I don't think I could ever really hate you.
I'm sorry that you got the wrong impression, it wasn't what I hoped for. I hoped maybe you could be the least bit more understanding and we could have gone to the concert and had a good time.
I geuss this is all I have to say. I'm sorry things turned out the way they did. I'll miss you. I wish you would have not ripped up my card because every word of it was the truth. i love you ryan. bye.
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