& again & again & again.
my father speaks of his life as if it's a story he read over & over again.
I'm upset. My mother is abandoning me with my ill tempered father. I shouldn't say "abandoning", that makes you think of "Hello, I'm off, goodbye, leaving you out on the streets, you'll never hear from me again!". . ....ok, I'm nuts. She's just moving to upstate NY on Sunday, & she won't be here for my birthday which is in 1 week & 6 days. My sister is going too. I can't go, for reasons I'm not going to get into. Most likely I'll never see her though. This is what happens with all relationships that are tight. Distance always come. Anyone you're close with, eventually you will be far from eachother. At some point, my best friends(being Sara, Mare & Stacy) will all move far away from eachother. Of course, we'll be in contact, & we'll get used to distance(like Anthony & I have, unfortunatly). I was really close with Mike Monek, only for him to leave for the Navy 2 weeks later. We don't talk now. Bobby & I were super close, but then he had college. Things are fine now though. um. .. ..
I really hate that my mother & my sister moving 6 hours away. As if my family is not separated enough. My sister Gabrielle, Margo & I used to spend summers together. Each one was wonderful. Being young & playing house or barbies(the Docter! Barbie Corvette!), to walking around the block & to Big Dipper & to the Evans school playground to play Pirate Ship? What we'll always remember is how I was always so jealous, & I used to throw fits because I was the youngest one & they could talk about being in Elementry school. Once I was in elementry school they eventually moved & talked about middle school, & then high school, & now college. I was immature & felt left out. Growing up I was so jealous of my sister. She was the loved spoiled one of my family(her pink bedroom with the lovely canopy bed, while I had the old springy bed in my ugly blue bedroom). She got to go to California while I went to visit my great grandmother & had a dreadful time in the hot, humid West Virginia. She never got in trouble, while I was blamed for everything. She was the ambitious young dancer that everyone adored(the love she received when playing Clara in the Nutcracker, while I was Fritz!. ..you probably don't understand.) Sometimes my friends would come over & want to hang out with her. But we were young, it's ok. Our parents would tuck us in after we would jump into our bed & stuff our heads into our clean smelling pillows. Of course, you grow out of that. I'm not jealous at all anymore(except maybe when it comes to school). I don't know why I'm rambling on about my childhood, no one really cares to read about it probably unless you are Margo or Gabby. But it helps to remember. It's just amazing how drastically things(as well as people, places & just overall everything from the simpliest to important issues) changed.
I have to get going. I'm excited for this weekend. Sunday night it's me, Nikki, Ariel, Violet, maybe Stacy & her friend Amber & maybe Julie & Lindsey to Shampoo. MTV is hosting the event. Monday I have Y100 Fez with Violet, Jay, & Meg. I'm meeting up with Jaime too.
Last night I didn't get to bed till 5 am. I have reason. I'm not going to get into it. Maybe I just won't say anything to anyone at all.
Tonight Gabby is comming home. I missed her. I hope we hang out. I'm trying to spend as much time as possible with her & my mom, considering I won't see them for a long time, probably. I told them I would help them pack.
have a good day.
thanks I will.
I'm upset. My mother is abandoning me with my ill tempered father. I shouldn't say "abandoning", that makes you think of "Hello, I'm off, goodbye, leaving you out on the streets, you'll never hear from me again!". . ....ok, I'm nuts. She's just moving to upstate NY on Sunday, & she won't be here for my birthday which is in 1 week & 6 days. My sister is going too. I can't go, for reasons I'm not going to get into. Most likely I'll never see her though. This is what happens with all relationships that are tight. Distance always come. Anyone you're close with, eventually you will be far from eachother. At some point, my best friends(being Sara, Mare & Stacy) will all move far away from eachother. Of course, we'll be in contact, & we'll get used to distance(like Anthony & I have, unfortunatly). I was really close with Mike Monek, only for him to leave for the Navy 2 weeks later. We don't talk now. Bobby & I were super close, but then he had college. Things are fine now though. um. .. ..
I really hate that my mother & my sister moving 6 hours away. As if my family is not separated enough. My sister Gabrielle, Margo & I used to spend summers together. Each one was wonderful. Being young & playing house or barbies(the Docter! Barbie Corvette!), to walking around the block & to Big Dipper & to the Evans school playground to play Pirate Ship? What we'll always remember is how I was always so jealous, & I used to throw fits because I was the youngest one & they could talk about being in Elementry school. Once I was in elementry school they eventually moved & talked about middle school, & then high school, & now college. I was immature & felt left out. Growing up I was so jealous of my sister. She was the loved spoiled one of my family(her pink bedroom with the lovely canopy bed, while I had the old springy bed in my ugly blue bedroom). She got to go to California while I went to visit my great grandmother & had a dreadful time in the hot, humid West Virginia. She never got in trouble, while I was blamed for everything. She was the ambitious young dancer that everyone adored(the love she received when playing Clara in the Nutcracker, while I was Fritz!. ..you probably don't understand.) Sometimes my friends would come over & want to hang out with her. But we were young, it's ok. Our parents would tuck us in after we would jump into our bed & stuff our heads into our clean smelling pillows. Of course, you grow out of that. I'm not jealous at all anymore(except maybe when it comes to school). I don't know why I'm rambling on about my childhood, no one really cares to read about it probably unless you are Margo or Gabby. But it helps to remember. It's just amazing how drastically things(as well as people, places & just overall everything from the simpliest to important issues) changed.
I have to get going. I'm excited for this weekend. Sunday night it's me, Nikki, Ariel, Violet, maybe Stacy & her friend Amber & maybe Julie & Lindsey to Shampoo. MTV is hosting the event. Monday I have Y100 Fez with Violet, Jay, & Meg. I'm meeting up with Jaime too.
Last night I didn't get to bed till 5 am. I have reason. I'm not going to get into it. Maybe I just won't say anything to anyone at all.
Tonight Gabby is comming home. I missed her. I hope we hang out. I'm trying to spend as much time as possible with her & my mom, considering I won't see them for a long time, probably. I told them I would help them pack.
have a good day.
thanks I will.