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So i haven't been on in a while, life has been really hard... Mikey and i aren't together anymore... and that was about the only think that has kept me going... so yeah... my birthday is in 2 days it is my sweet sixteen!! i am so excited... I hope mikey doesn't want anybody else i don't know what i would do... if he found someone else... my aunt that i am living with now thinks that he is the greatest thing that has happened to me, and i mean i spoil him like nothing, and he still doesn't want me back, we got drunk together friday night... well he got drunk, and he told me that he has thought about getting back together a lot... and i just want him to know that if he does decide yes, i will not let anything screw it up, because right now, the way we are... is how love should be...after living with my aunt and uncle and learning from them... i understand now how to make the best of things... i realized that i didn't need to bitch about half the things that i bitched about... mistake on my part and i am sorry, but when i don't take my pills... idk... i am a lot better off without them... i just wish i had him back so bad... i still cry because i don't have him to call my own, we were so much a like it was unreal... i still and will always love him like i said... i told him i will never stop he is a drug you can't get out of your system... it is really hard for me... this is the one birthday that i am looking forward too... maybe because i am hoping that he will want me back...???
There will never be anybody else and that i swear, mikey may not have money or the ability of attention but he was so amazing at what he puts his mind too... Saturday we went looking at yard sales, and then we went hiking at snug harbour, this was after i spent the whole night with him, and the day before i got my new tattoo, so it was an amazing weekend... i wanted him over sunday night for dinner but he was to busy to call me back... But the weekend with him was so priceless it was unreal, amazing and perfect in so many ways...
well i might as well stop rambaling on about mikey...
I LOVE YOU UNTIL I DIE!!!!
There will never be anybody else and that i swear, mikey may not have money or the ability of attention but he was so amazing at what he puts his mind too... Saturday we went looking at yard sales, and then we went hiking at snug harbour, this was after i spent the whole night with him, and the day before i got my new tattoo, so it was an amazing weekend... i wanted him over sunday night for dinner but he was to busy to call me back... But the weekend with him was so priceless it was unreal, amazing and perfect in so many ways...
well i might as well stop rambaling on about mikey...
I LOVE YOU UNTIL I DIE!!!!