future plans
i never felt so demoralize in my life, not once. I cant believe some stranger, who probably don't know me enough is able to do this shitz to me. Everytime i tell myself to look on the bright side of life and sort of recharge myself, _ manages to tear it all apart in just a sec. Life is too draggy now for me, and i hate it.
If work's gonna stay this way, im giving up my plans of being a career woman with my dreams. There's no point in obtaining such goals if it's all dumb and useless in the end. i just cant believe _ will be the one to break me apart. Really.
This is the only time my lucky cat "caimao" is not working it's magic powers. I dont know if this is a lesson/test that i should pass or im just plain shitz unlucky. But, if it's a test, i think i fared above average for tolerating all this nonsense for like gazillion times, and trying to cheer myself up a gazillion times.
i think i rather end up giving birth to my future 5 babies and be a housewife. (which i would have never image would happen at all) At least i'm happier, and there's meaning to life.
bottom line: i cant wait for sunday when i can see nick again :(
If work's gonna stay this way, im giving up my plans of being a career woman with my dreams. There's no point in obtaining such goals if it's all dumb and useless in the end. i just cant believe _ will be the one to break me apart. Really.
This is the only time my lucky cat "caimao" is not working it's magic powers. I dont know if this is a lesson/test that i should pass or im just plain shitz unlucky. But, if it's a test, i think i fared above average for tolerating all this nonsense for like gazillion times, and trying to cheer myself up a gazillion times.
i think i rather end up giving birth to my future 5 babies and be a housewife. (which i would have never image would happen at all) At least i'm happier, and there's meaning to life.
bottom line: i cant wait for sunday when i can see nick again :(