21st
after i created the tag 'the face men thailand' for this journal, i had a mini goal in my heart (actually not quite a goal but an observation for my self-curiosity). i wondered if i would use this tag at least 21 times, to make it 2nd rank after Hey! Say! JUMP (which i haven't written about for a while, but 32 uses is a big hurdle to surpass.)
this entry is 21st.
21 entries in a clean row.
started with many characters (i still admire you guys even now), ended up with only one boy in many last (mood swinging) entries. many contradicted information has attacked me. bluntly. mystery dark empty space has hurt me. harshly.
Gunn was my muse, created my new universe. now he's the destroyer.
i felt like i could love this same boy for many years on, if he stayed at the same spot being a same old adorable & dorky little kid. but he moved away.
i'm not a fangirl. never wanted him to be mine. always pro-human & won't support the hate in any condition. but that person is indeed the toxic contamination. even this ugly claim can make her happy, because she desperately craves to be important.
i pity you my lil boy & i'm very sad.
i wish you a safe & warm life. take good care of yourself.
i've never thought before but now i wonder... if 21st means last.
Click to viewps. i'm deeply sorry for everyone that the trend is dying. it's so unfair. it's not your fault. this world is disgustingly disappointing. but we all have to move on.