Sitting in a room staring at the screen.

[prettyrazorgirl]

I'm sitting here staring at the screen wondering why life is here again. The minute I had my life all under control, this whole new thing evolved from something old. You came back into my life, and I can't even imagine where to take my life. I was going to college, I still am. But at the moment all I can think of is the moment when you held me hand. I want you to be the one here right now in my house, kissing my neck, and the one who catches that mouse. I want you to be the one right here nest to me, I want you to be the one who is always near me. I am trying to wish that you would have called me earlier, so I could tell you the news, that I'm going to be so much closer. I wanted you to know first, but I couldn't get a hold of you. God everyone kept telling me you were gone, that you weren't going to call. For a moment there I believed it, that you weren't coming back at all. I thought you were gone, maybe locked up or worse, but I never wanted to give up, or think of the worst. I just want to go back, and try it again. I want you to come back to me, and hold me again. Please don't let me fuck up something good, for once in my life I want to be that girl from the hood. I want to be down for my homie g, I want to be there for you, like you'ev been there for me. Please let me be here for you now and forever, because for once in my life, I'm believing in us, being together.

Dedicated to Charlie Forest, baby don't let me screw this up, I only make the same mistake once. Don't let me walk away, and I wont let you either.