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so it turns out that my OH SO GREAT fucking boyfriend is an ass in disguise.
tonight, it ALL CAME OUT.
he doesn't agree with homosexuality, he doesn't agree with abortion, he thinks that every boy i talk to secretly wants to FUCK ME, and actually believes that I WOULD FUCK THEM TOO.
also, let me tell you a story.
neil has a three month old daughter. that he hasn't seen SINCE HE STARTED DATING ME.
funny, you ask, how myself being a single mother can date someone who is like that....
and funny, i say that i have up until this point.
it was because i honestly believed he was making an effort.
but GUESS WHAT, he's not trying as hard as he can.
granted, the mother is a BITCH. a big one.
but that's something he has to deal with to be in her life.
he doesn't pay child support either, did i mention that before?
how did this all start, one might ask...
let me tell you:
we're sitting on the couch innocently watching the real world.
he'd rather be up in my room having sex.
sure, i'd love to be having sex too, but i'm waiting for the next commercial, thanks.
happens to be the gay boys in a club, and his comment is, "i don't feel like watching fucking faggots"
HUH. where did that come from??!
don't get me wrong, i knew since day one that he was religious.
i tried not to let the cross in his room bother me.
tried not to pay attention when he told me i was a gift from god.
but this....this just started a big huge mess.
i flat out told him that if we had had this conversation on our first date, there never would have been a second one.
EVER.
the reason i have not had a boyfriend up until this point is exactly this:
I DON'T FEEL LIKE I NEED TO SECRIFICE ANYTHING FOR ANYONE BUT MY DAUGHTER.
call me selfish, but that is how i am.
then he starts going on about how he hates the fairies in my room.
they're fictious.
and he keeps going ON about how none of these things are a big deal if we LOVE EACH OTHER.
correct me if i'm wrong, but i think all of these issues are as big as they GET.
he tried to say that me not sitting next to him on the couch was a bigger issue.
you're a MAN neil, not a little fucking boy.
i cannot even believe that this man has been my boyfriend for the past two months.
my friend kevin was going to come visit me and ariana the other day.
yes, he is an old boyfriend of mine....but he's an old boyfriend from when i was 14!!
because of the storm, kevin didn't come over.
i called neil that night repeatedly with no call in return.
tonight he felt the need to inform me that he TRULY BELIEVES if kevin came over, i wouldn't have called him.
that i'd call when i was pulling my pants back up as kevin was leaving.
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO INSULTED IN MY LIFE.
i told him that was all his INSECURITY and nothing to do with me.
he agreed. HAH.
i apoligize dan mitchell, what you have said/done in the past pales in comparison to what took place tonight.
he informed me that if any boy ever touched me, he'd rip thir head off.
that homosexuality is WRONG.
funny, how i've dated and been IN LOVE with a woman,
but i'm still okay to FUCK.
i am absolutely shocked at the man i saw and heard tonight.
and you know what, he was right in ONE THING he said tonight.
that i am refusing to sacrifice for him.
because i'll be damned the day i want to marry a fucking PIG like him.
so, to end the story of all stories:
when the "you would call me as you were pulling up your pants...." line came out of his mouth, i told him to leave.
and after i started my car and we were standing outside, i said to him,
"i can't even fucking believe that you think that of me", got in my car, moved it out of his way, and let him speed away.
FUCKING ASSHOLE.
tonight, it ALL CAME OUT.
he doesn't agree with homosexuality, he doesn't agree with abortion, he thinks that every boy i talk to secretly wants to FUCK ME, and actually believes that I WOULD FUCK THEM TOO.
also, let me tell you a story.
neil has a three month old daughter. that he hasn't seen SINCE HE STARTED DATING ME.
funny, you ask, how myself being a single mother can date someone who is like that....
and funny, i say that i have up until this point.
it was because i honestly believed he was making an effort.
but GUESS WHAT, he's not trying as hard as he can.
granted, the mother is a BITCH. a big one.
but that's something he has to deal with to be in her life.
he doesn't pay child support either, did i mention that before?
how did this all start, one might ask...
let me tell you:
we're sitting on the couch innocently watching the real world.
he'd rather be up in my room having sex.
sure, i'd love to be having sex too, but i'm waiting for the next commercial, thanks.
happens to be the gay boys in a club, and his comment is, "i don't feel like watching fucking faggots"
HUH. where did that come from??!
don't get me wrong, i knew since day one that he was religious.
i tried not to let the cross in his room bother me.
tried not to pay attention when he told me i was a gift from god.
but this....this just started a big huge mess.
i flat out told him that if we had had this conversation on our first date, there never would have been a second one.
EVER.
the reason i have not had a boyfriend up until this point is exactly this:
I DON'T FEEL LIKE I NEED TO SECRIFICE ANYTHING FOR ANYONE BUT MY DAUGHTER.
call me selfish, but that is how i am.
then he starts going on about how he hates the fairies in my room.
they're fictious.
and he keeps going ON about how none of these things are a big deal if we LOVE EACH OTHER.
correct me if i'm wrong, but i think all of these issues are as big as they GET.
he tried to say that me not sitting next to him on the couch was a bigger issue.
you're a MAN neil, not a little fucking boy.
i cannot even believe that this man has been my boyfriend for the past two months.
my friend kevin was going to come visit me and ariana the other day.
yes, he is an old boyfriend of mine....but he's an old boyfriend from when i was 14!!
because of the storm, kevin didn't come over.
i called neil that night repeatedly with no call in return.
tonight he felt the need to inform me that he TRULY BELIEVES if kevin came over, i wouldn't have called him.
that i'd call when i was pulling my pants back up as kevin was leaving.
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO INSULTED IN MY LIFE.
i told him that was all his INSECURITY and nothing to do with me.
he agreed. HAH.
i apoligize dan mitchell, what you have said/done in the past pales in comparison to what took place tonight.
he informed me that if any boy ever touched me, he'd rip thir head off.
that homosexuality is WRONG.
funny, how i've dated and been IN LOVE with a woman,
but i'm still okay to FUCK.
i am absolutely shocked at the man i saw and heard tonight.
and you know what, he was right in ONE THING he said tonight.
that i am refusing to sacrifice for him.
because i'll be damned the day i want to marry a fucking PIG like him.
so, to end the story of all stories:
when the "you would call me as you were pulling up your pants...." line came out of his mouth, i told him to leave.
and after i started my car and we were standing outside, i said to him,
"i can't even fucking believe that you think that of me", got in my car, moved it out of his way, and let him speed away.
FUCKING ASSHOLE.