This will be the worst part of my life.....
Blah... the dreaded day came and went... it sucked, i could barely look at her without a tear running down my face. Everytime i talk to her on the phone, i get this mixed feeling... half is soo happy to hear her voice, the other dreading her phonecall because when i hang up.... the horrible feeling comes right back. I was freaking sick this morning because of how upset am... i didnt know that was possible until i looked it up on the internet. Extreme stress causes you to get sick easier, holy shit i didnt know that was possible... so i guess i will spend alot of time feeling like shit (in both ways i guess). We went to this club last night and my friends were telling girls it was my birthday and i was lonely so they kept coming up... i got pissed off and yelled at them, then they left me alone.. i liked my moping session thank you very much. I think from now on im just gonna pretend to be all happy and shit just because i hear her and her roommate laughing and joking and i dont wanna make her feel bad or sad or anything... i want her to have fun...