lets take this back to last thursday..
so i meet him for dinner..i recieve my phone and a few other odds and ends that i had asked for...as i had figured dinner was a little awkward..we BSed..and again not even talk about the situation...the bill comes and he says something..and i guess i got the qwiver lip that I get before i start to cry...he askes me why...i never know it happens ..and then i tear drops from the corner of my right eye...he then says "if everytime we see each other im going to cry this whole thing isnt going to work out." at this point im very angry at myself because ive been so strong all along untill then...he is my weakness...we then decided to leave he hugs me kisses me tells me he loves and misses me...and then hes gone...no sign of when i'll hear or see him again....
NOW TO THE PRESENT...
Today he shows up out of no where at my work..so i take my break to talk to him....he askes me why im being so stand offish...i mean come on no word for a month a breif dinner and then your gone again...im not sure if im suppose to run up and hug u or mind my own business...im not allowed to call you when i want to see you when i want to..but you however can just show up at my work...how am i suppose to react...of course i miss you of course i want to hug u but am im suppose to? he tears up and says he misses me..of course i do..but should i say it..then i get the qwiver lip again..i tear up too and he tells me not to cry i have to go back to work...and then says that we should get together this weekend that he'll call me.i then finally admit that i miss him more.hug him and he gives me a kiss..and again walks away...leaving me wondering when will he call me...today tomorrow ...or if at all. Im falling apart...again..and again he is my weakness...
NOW TO THE PRESENT...
Today he shows up out of no where at my work..so i take my break to talk to him....he askes me why im being so stand offish...i mean come on no word for a month a breif dinner and then your gone again...im not sure if im suppose to run up and hug u or mind my own business...im not allowed to call you when i want to see you when i want to..but you however can just show up at my work...how am i suppose to react...of course i miss you of course i want to hug u but am im suppose to? he tears up and says he misses me..of course i do..but should i say it..then i get the qwiver lip again..i tear up too and he tells me not to cry i have to go back to work...and then says that we should get together this weekend that he'll call me.i then finally admit that i miss him more.hug him and he gives me a kiss..and again walks away...leaving me wondering when will he call me...today tomorrow ...or if at all. Im falling apart...again..and again he is my weakness...