oh, hey
o hai there
so Im at a really frustrating point in my life right now. everything is up in the air. I cant do everything I want anymore. cant do anything right damn. I wanna be good at everything, but now im just ok at everything cuz i cant make decisions. if i sit down and try to figure out what my real priorities are, I end up with nothing, just more confused. on the roster for this school year will be : school, work, girlfriend, bodybuilding, jiu jitsu, band, computer gaming. HERROOOOO. wtfffff. bodybuildin has been suffering the most, i dont call myself a bodybuilder anymore, i dont look like one anymore. I dont train or eat like one. I feel like a washed up old guy in the gym now.
at the same time though im happy wif alot of things. i realy like jiu jitsu, i realy like my gf, i realy like work. I been gettin more responsibility at work and deal wif bigger clients. me and tiffy been datin for almost 2 months now and its going 2 gud. shud be skateboarding again soon hopefully i dont fuck my ankle again. not worth it. me n zach had a good talk and are friends again, i missed him. I hated wanting to kill him all the time. gotta live with the foight
so Im at a really frustrating point in my life right now. everything is up in the air. I cant do everything I want anymore. cant do anything right damn. I wanna be good at everything, but now im just ok at everything cuz i cant make decisions. if i sit down and try to figure out what my real priorities are, I end up with nothing, just more confused. on the roster for this school year will be : school, work, girlfriend, bodybuilding, jiu jitsu, band, computer gaming. HERROOOOO. wtfffff. bodybuildin has been suffering the most, i dont call myself a bodybuilder anymore, i dont look like one anymore. I dont train or eat like one. I feel like a washed up old guy in the gym now.
at the same time though im happy wif alot of things. i realy like jiu jitsu, i realy like my gf, i realy like work. I been gettin more responsibility at work and deal wif bigger clients. me and tiffy been datin for almost 2 months now and its going 2 gud. shud be skateboarding again soon hopefully i dont fuck my ankle again. not worth it. me n zach had a good talk and are friends again, i missed him. I hated wanting to kill him all the time. gotta live with the foight