So Frustrated!!! Stupid, stupid body!

[prettylard07]

Ladies!!! I can't stand it anymore! My therapists have always asked, "Why do you hate your body? Why do you take your painful emotions/situations out on it?" Well, here is why: because it fucking sucks, thats why!!! I was doing soooooo goood about my weight loss then I found out I had ovarian cycts and so working out too hard can make them explode and I could bleed internally. So, ok, I can handle that, just relax and get meds and work out a little bit. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Then my back decides its bored with being normal and decides to sprain so badly that I'm ordered on bedrest... not only does that really interfer with the workout plan it makes working at the job i love hard! FUCK FUCK FUCK! Why why why does this happen to me?! I am fucking destined to be fat forever?! And god, today I a handleful of chocolate candies then a chicken sandwich and fries from McDonalds! Why can't I just not be hungry?! Why do I have to always be showing shit in my mouth to calm down?! AND why can't I just lose weight?! I try, god knowsI do... And the Hydrocut, its great EXCEPT it makes me fuckin jittery and spacy and even more anxious. FUCK!

PS. Sorry about the naughty language but I can't fucking help it right now. After all the shit I ate I'm still hungry and being hungry pisses me off. Or it could also be the pain too, or both most likely. Someone please give me advice on how to deal or encouraging comments, please.... I need it!!! I'm losing my mind...!!!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!