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Is it sad that a fortune cookie can make me happy? that thats my last ray of hope? when i opened up the little bag after feasting on chinese food and ripped open the cookie and read, "your dearest desire will come true", i cant say i wasnt happy...excited...amazed at how lame i am for taking a fortune to mean anything more that a few words typed up and printed out, meaning nothing. no, i dont think that tomorrow magical things will happen. but its nice to pretend that maybe they will. although at this point i have no idea what my "dearest desire" is. anything i want would fuck something else up. everything is too complicated. maybe my dearest desire is to be happy again. and as cliche as that is, maybe thats all i really want. maybe someday i'll figure out how....