we all crash new jet planes tonight
Last friday was fun. People came over. We roasted marshmallows and then sat on the porch while it hurricaned outside. HFS was awesome. Seeing the Cure was unbelievable... and Modest Mouse. Epic everything.
Oh, mom called- 20 miles down 66, said, "Katy, where are you going? I KNOW you're not going shopping." ha ha ha. But all was well.
Wednesday I went to the park and it lame.
Today was "Spirit Day" at school. We had an awards assembly and then games and such. I thought I'd let up a little on my usual relentless "fuck the system!!!!!" attitude and enjoy the tie dye and free ice cream. And besides, they made a grilled cheese for the vegetarian.
Everyone tells me that I spend too much time with Zach... and that I'm leading him on. That may be true... But I know I'll just screw things up so I'm going to leave it at that. Besides, its almost summer, I don't want a relationship. complications.
anyway, Daryl and Jamie are on the verge of breaking up. I'm not supposed to know this, but I do, and its very very strange. I never thought they would and I dont know what to think of it. I like them both... just... separately.
Tomorrow is Newtown... I was looking forward to it, but I dont think it will be as fun now with these new vibes. We're going anyway. I guess its better than doing nothing, such as tonight, though by choice.
I feel everything coming to a halt around me.
I have 3 more years of high school. But it just wont be the same. Cleaning out my room yesterday and going through all of the notes passed in class and 5 billion pictures. It seems like everything we did was so simple but I cant remember if this is true or not. I always remember things, not feelings. It distorts the time. Its kind of upsetting how everything has changed this past year but I guess its normal and I should get used to change. I'm pretty much happy with my life right now. I guess, just, with school ending... I dont know how to feel about a lot of things.
this is long... and I should study.
Oh, mom called- 20 miles down 66, said, "Katy, where are you going? I KNOW you're not going shopping." ha ha ha. But all was well.
Wednesday I went to the park and it lame.
Today was "Spirit Day" at school. We had an awards assembly and then games and such. I thought I'd let up a little on my usual relentless "fuck the system!!!!!" attitude and enjoy the tie dye and free ice cream. And besides, they made a grilled cheese for the vegetarian.
Everyone tells me that I spend too much time with Zach... and that I'm leading him on. That may be true... But I know I'll just screw things up so I'm going to leave it at that. Besides, its almost summer, I don't want a relationship. complications.
anyway, Daryl and Jamie are on the verge of breaking up. I'm not supposed to know this, but I do, and its very very strange. I never thought they would and I dont know what to think of it. I like them both... just... separately.
Tomorrow is Newtown... I was looking forward to it, but I dont think it will be as fun now with these new vibes. We're going anyway. I guess its better than doing nothing, such as tonight, though by choice.
I feel everything coming to a halt around me.
I have 3 more years of high school. But it just wont be the same. Cleaning out my room yesterday and going through all of the notes passed in class and 5 billion pictures. It seems like everything we did was so simple but I cant remember if this is true or not. I always remember things, not feelings. It distorts the time. Its kind of upsetting how everything has changed this past year but I guess its normal and I should get used to change. I'm pretty much happy with my life right now. I guess, just, with school ending... I dont know how to feel about a lot of things.
this is long... and I should study.