Okay no more songs about you. After this one I am done.
You know, everyone said I was making a mistake. And maybe I was, maybe not, it doesnt really matter now. Nothing will ever be the same as it was last year and I'm not sure if thats a good thing or just the opposite...
But I just dont get how someone I talked to every night and thought of as my best friend, can be someone I cant even stand to look at now. Someone whos arrogant and just, fakes everything all the time. Someone who makes excuses and puts me on false hope and who puts a sick feeling in my stomach every time I think about them.
I dont understand anything.
But I'm just so fucking happy I have friends who listen to my constant ranting. I can imagine its been pretty hard to put up with me lately.
I'm just ready to stop being pathetic and get over this hate filled infatuation with things and move on.
And I'm already starting to.
crushes *sigh
I cant wait for thanksgiving for some reason. Dottie has a new boyfriend. I was upset at first because its only been 8 months since Poppie died, but now I'm just happy for her. Which is how I've been with everyone lately. Just really really happy for everyone. most everyone.
Its 4am and I work at 11.
But I just dont get how someone I talked to every night and thought of as my best friend, can be someone I cant even stand to look at now. Someone whos arrogant and just, fakes everything all the time. Someone who makes excuses and puts me on false hope and who puts a sick feeling in my stomach every time I think about them.
I dont understand anything.
But I'm just so fucking happy I have friends who listen to my constant ranting. I can imagine its been pretty hard to put up with me lately.
I'm just ready to stop being pathetic and get over this hate filled infatuation with things and move on.
And I'm already starting to.
crushes *sigh
I cant wait for thanksgiving for some reason. Dottie has a new boyfriend. I was upset at first because its only been 8 months since Poppie died, but now I'm just happy for her. Which is how I've been with everyone lately. Just really really happy for everyone. most everyone.
Its 4am and I work at 11.