Still sitting at the kids table?
So a lot of my friends and acquaintances have had big life-changing events happen in the past month or so. Three of my former Old Navy coworkers got engaged in the week before Christmas, another Old Navy friend had a baby, two girls I know from high school announced they're having babies, etc. Adam's best friend and his wife are starting to try for a baby, and one of his other friends will likely get engaged in the next six months or so as well. Now, I want to get married someday but I don't even want children, so the real question is, why does not having these things make me feel inadequate when they are things I don't even necessarily want? Hmmm. I guess it's not a question really, since I know the reason why. I am going to be 27 years old this year (which makes me easily a couple years older than all the aforementioned people) and yet here I am. Unmarried. No children. Still living in a college town in a college-style apartment working with college-aged kids and trying to figure out what I want to be "when I grow up". But I'm probably being too harsh on myself. I have Adam, and I have a stable job (which I do like, despite the stress), and I'm well-educated... I wonder sometimes if 10 years from now all of those people who've been married for a long time and worn out from their children won't ask themselves if people like Adam and I had the right idea instead? Somehow I am doubtful. I was talking to Adam about this and I liked what he said, which was, "I never really aspired to be a grown-up so I don't really ever have to worry about not becoming one." I'd never really thought of it that way, and yet it makes sense to me, which is one of the many reasons why I love him so much. I should enjoy the fact that I'm young and I can basically do whatever I want! *sigh* That doesn't change the fact that sometimes it feels as though I'm stuck at the kiddie table while everyone else is having a good time at the big one, ya know? Do you think that feeling ever really goes away? And what is it that makes it go away? Is it getting married? Buying a house? Having children? I'm sure it's different for everyone. Let me know when y'all figure it out, k?
In the meantime, I'll be pretty busy the next few weeks so sorry in advance if I disappear for another long stretch of time. Adam and I are visiting a friend of his and his wife in Ft. Wayne this weekend, in two weeks we're off to Pittsburgh to see my family and friends back home, and two weeks after that we're headed to Paoli Peaks for skiing, followed by a day in Santa Claus for his niece's 1st birthday party. *Phew* In between all that I'll be working, of course, and keeping busy there. Anyway, speaking of work, I should at least start getting ready for bed, as I actually have a morning shift tomorrow (gasp!) Yay for pjs and sleep!
In the meantime, I'll be pretty busy the next few weeks so sorry in advance if I disappear for another long stretch of time. Adam and I are visiting a friend of his and his wife in Ft. Wayne this weekend, in two weeks we're off to Pittsburgh to see my family and friends back home, and two weeks after that we're headed to Paoli Peaks for skiing, followed by a day in Santa Claus for his niece's 1st birthday party. *Phew* In between all that I'll be working, of course, and keeping busy there. Anyway, speaking of work, I should at least start getting ready for bed, as I actually have a morning shift tomorrow (gasp!) Yay for pjs and sleep!