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So today I think I overdosed on no-doze. I took 2, which may not seem like a lot, considering Keith took 6, but for me, it is a lot; especially considering that I don't even drink pop everyday...
I took it before homeroom, and started feeling all hyped up during physics, and within about 20 minutes I wasn't feeling too great. I ended up calling my mommy and having her come get me.
I was afraid that she'd be mad, but she wasn't at all. She brought me home, and I went to bed. I thought that it was kind of weird that I was able to sleep, considering I took no-doze...
I woke up to her standing above me staring at me, and then I just lied there thinking for a while. It was really weird.
I started thinking about the weirdest shit... The craziest thing was that I am going to die soon. I don't mean suicide or anything... I really like my life. I mean by accident or something.
I've always considered myself kind of invincible, but out of nowhere I started thinking about this. Within the month I've cut both of my wrists, not deep, and completely on accident, i've ridden around with people that definitely are a danger to my life(haha), and now I ODed on no-doze. Oh, and my eyesight is going crazy.
I was thinking about everyone I know and how bad it would be for them. I was imagining that I was looking down at everyone at my funeral unable to do anything but watch as they were all hurting and crying.
That was the worst part about everything. When people I know are hurting, I want to be there to comfort them and help them with whatever their problem is, but I was unable to do anything.
Then I was thinking about if I could become a guardian angel who's I would be. Vanessa was the first person that came to mind, but then I kept thinking of other people that I would want to "help out". I decided that I'd just want to help everyone.
Anyway... Right now I feel fine, and pretty invincible again. It was a really weird thought, and I don't know why it came into my head, but it was really scary. I really hope it was all wrong.
I took it before homeroom, and started feeling all hyped up during physics, and within about 20 minutes I wasn't feeling too great. I ended up calling my mommy and having her come get me.
I was afraid that she'd be mad, but she wasn't at all. She brought me home, and I went to bed. I thought that it was kind of weird that I was able to sleep, considering I took no-doze...
I woke up to her standing above me staring at me, and then I just lied there thinking for a while. It was really weird.
I started thinking about the weirdest shit... The craziest thing was that I am going to die soon. I don't mean suicide or anything... I really like my life. I mean by accident or something.
I've always considered myself kind of invincible, but out of nowhere I started thinking about this. Within the month I've cut both of my wrists, not deep, and completely on accident, i've ridden around with people that definitely are a danger to my life(haha), and now I ODed on no-doze. Oh, and my eyesight is going crazy.
I was thinking about everyone I know and how bad it would be for them. I was imagining that I was looking down at everyone at my funeral unable to do anything but watch as they were all hurting and crying.
That was the worst part about everything. When people I know are hurting, I want to be there to comfort them and help them with whatever their problem is, but I was unable to do anything.
Then I was thinking about if I could become a guardian angel who's I would be. Vanessa was the first person that came to mind, but then I kept thinking of other people that I would want to "help out". I decided that I'd just want to help everyone.
Anyway... Right now I feel fine, and pretty invincible again. It was a really weird thought, and I don't know why it came into my head, but it was really scary. I really hope it was all wrong.