soulmate dry your eyes, cause soulmates never die
Let me just say that I am pissed off as hell,
so be prepared for bitching.
First order of business:
-If i don't want to let you borrow MY car so you can go get high in it, don't get pissed at me because HI. IT'S MY FUCKING CAR. Get the hell off my back about and, as i've said before, get a life.
Second:
-People who repeatedly like to tell me that they like Maddie better than me, thank you for destroying my already negative percent of self-esteem. Seriously, I really appreciate people who I think are my friends basically telling me they don't like me. And if you're only kidding, this just in: IT'S NOT FUNNY.
Third:
-I feel like I'm gaining weight, but that doesn't make much sense because the only meal I usually eat is lunch at school. Unhealthy to the max, yes, I'm just usually not hungry most of the other times. I hate myself.
Fourth:
-Almost a fucking year without her. This is so unfair. She shouldn't be gone, she should still be here. It's not fair. When she died everything fell apart. I miss her more than any amount of words could ever explain. I would give anything if we could have given her one more day to show her how much we loved her.
I fucking miss you and love you Rebecca.
Fifth:
-I seriously feel like I should appologize. She was there when no one else was. When he was hurting me she was there and made me feel better and cried with me. We were sisters. Now we're nothing. I don't know what to do.
Sixth:
-I am a horrible, terrible, hypocritical, cynical, judgemental, judged, and confused person. I can never manage to say or do the right things ever. Today I had to present my poster in front of my modern european history class, and I was so nervous; I was shaking and sweating and couldn't breath. And when i sat down I could feel myself turning red because I was so embarassed. I hate when people look at me.
Seventh:
-For the first time I am with someone that says they love me and tries to show it. And is nice to me. And treats me like a person, like an equal. I am completely comfortabe. There's no need for me to try to impress, or be someone/something that I am not. I don't have to pretend to be happy and comfortable because it comes naturally. This is the first.
Eigth:
-My left ear has been screaming since the show last night.
Ninth:
-You know what's funny? This entire last year.
Everyone should listen to Reggie And The Full Effect.
edit.
Heather, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love
Everyone has a desire to love. But your desire is rooted very deeply in your unconscious and affects many of the decisions you make in life - whether you are aware of it or not.
You have an energy about you that inspires people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. In this way, you and your drive for loving relationships start a chain reaction of positive experiences.
The reason you are driven by love, may be because your unconscious is trying to avoid the opposite of love - hate. You, more than others, may be afraid of experiencing severe discord with others. That may, in turn, heavily influence your choices about relationships and the way you communicate your ideas, wants, and desires to others.
With such a strong orientation towards loving others, your relationships hold a very special place in your life. Your capacity to love may be greater than those around you, and therefore you may have more to give in relationships than your romantic partner does. Remember that this is a gift you have and one most others don't possess.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Love, there is much more to who you are at your core.
http://web.tickle.com/tests/inkblot/authorize/signin.jsp?url=/tests/inkblot/index.jsp
so be prepared for bitching.
First order of business:
-If i don't want to let you borrow MY car so you can go get high in it, don't get pissed at me because HI. IT'S MY FUCKING CAR. Get the hell off my back about and, as i've said before, get a life.
Second:
-People who repeatedly like to tell me that they like Maddie better than me, thank you for destroying my already negative percent of self-esteem. Seriously, I really appreciate people who I think are my friends basically telling me they don't like me. And if you're only kidding, this just in: IT'S NOT FUNNY.
Third:
-I feel like I'm gaining weight, but that doesn't make much sense because the only meal I usually eat is lunch at school. Unhealthy to the max, yes, I'm just usually not hungry most of the other times. I hate myself.
Fourth:
-Almost a fucking year without her. This is so unfair. She shouldn't be gone, she should still be here. It's not fair. When she died everything fell apart. I miss her more than any amount of words could ever explain. I would give anything if we could have given her one more day to show her how much we loved her.
I fucking miss you and love you Rebecca.
Fifth:
-I seriously feel like I should appologize. She was there when no one else was. When he was hurting me she was there and made me feel better and cried with me. We were sisters. Now we're nothing. I don't know what to do.
Sixth:
-I am a horrible, terrible, hypocritical, cynical, judgemental, judged, and confused person. I can never manage to say or do the right things ever. Today I had to present my poster in front of my modern european history class, and I was so nervous; I was shaking and sweating and couldn't breath. And when i sat down I could feel myself turning red because I was so embarassed. I hate when people look at me.
Seventh:
-For the first time I am with someone that says they love me and tries to show it. And is nice to me. And treats me like a person, like an equal. I am completely comfortabe. There's no need for me to try to impress, or be someone/something that I am not. I don't have to pretend to be happy and comfortable because it comes naturally. This is the first.
Eigth:
-My left ear has been screaming since the show last night.
Ninth:
-You know what's funny? This entire last year.
Everyone should listen to Reggie And The Full Effect.
edit.
Heather, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love
Everyone has a desire to love. But your desire is rooted very deeply in your unconscious and affects many of the decisions you make in life - whether you are aware of it or not.
You have an energy about you that inspires people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. In this way, you and your drive for loving relationships start a chain reaction of positive experiences.
The reason you are driven by love, may be because your unconscious is trying to avoid the opposite of love - hate. You, more than others, may be afraid of experiencing severe discord with others. That may, in turn, heavily influence your choices about relationships and the way you communicate your ideas, wants, and desires to others.
With such a strong orientation towards loving others, your relationships hold a very special place in your life. Your capacity to love may be greater than those around you, and therefore you may have more to give in relationships than your romantic partner does. Remember that this is a gift you have and one most others don't possess.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Love, there is much more to who you are at your core.
http://web.tickle.com/tests/inkblot/authorize/signin.jsp?url=/tests/inkblot/index.jsp