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[prettygirlsdie]

its these rare occasions of reality that make you scared shitless. its the little things that are huge and make you think about everything. its that smile of pure joy that makes you cry all over again. its hearing his voice in your head and thinking it will never be more than a memory. its remembering what his hand felt like in yours and how he would joke about everything just to make you smile... its how he would get hyped up on caffene pills and god knows what and be hillarious. its how he thought he knew spainsh so well he programmed his phone to spanish... its how he skipped class one day and told miss hoyos, "mi abuela es muerte" and i gave him the idea. its how if you said something to him that ws mean he would quiver his chin and fake cry. its how his toes hung off of his worn out flip flops and how he played with everyones hair and made braids. its how he looked at you and your heart melt, you had to smile. its how he and i would make perfect actors in a love scene and freak everyone out around us. its how he won biggest flirt and was excited to sound slutty. its how he hit nahashis car and drove away with chia in tow and i was the only one who saw it. its how he came in late to the USF meeting and something wasnt right. its how i squeezed his arm on friday and he kept walking. its how at lunch on friday we were all laughing about his accident. its how he got all giddy around lynn and would tell me how much he liked her and how excited he got around her. its how he looked like the monopoly man because when he went to buzz his hair- he forgot the piece.

its remembering him and bring a sad smile to my face...

I love you MIKE comma GREEN