Pissy little me
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Ok so I haven't written in a while. I've been spending a lot of time with Sean. After he gets off of work he comes and see me.
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Yesterday was pretty up and down though. I felt so out of it, so I left school 5th and 6th period. I fell and banged up my knee. I practically slept on the bus and woke up a little bit when I saw Sean was there to pick me up. Then I got in the shower and got ready for the Catalina v. Marana football game. We went to his house, he got ready. Then we got into the truck he searched around for his bank card and left to the bank and get gas like 10 minutes later. Then finally on to the game.
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We started on our way to the game and there as a road block so we had to go around it. We got there at the end of 3rd quarter and the score was 28-0, catalina in the lead. *ScOrE* I saw some people there in our stands, not many though. Most were parents trying to catch the last game of the season. I did see Brad and his girlfriend. I think his girlfriend has never really liked me because I hug Brad and stuff, but she actually smiled at me and stuff, I think it's cause she saw I have Sean and I'm not interested in Brad other than a friend. Which is cool. Well, back on track I saw Niki last night! I miss her a lot but because she lives kinda close to Sean. I have seen her more this year than I have in the past few. I got to talk to her for a while which was awesomely awesome. Well, Catalina beat Marana 42-6. Sean and I talked to Niki a little bit more and then we left.
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After everything I was in a good mood. Sean took me to Wal*Mart and that was kinda fun until the end. The end really sucked. Well, Sean's ex works at the McDonalds in the Wal*mart, he tried to take me over there and I didn't want to. I told him I feel uncomfortable meeting ex's. So what's he do? He goes over there anyway and kinda pulls me along. I let go and walk out of the store. I sat on the bench outside and started to cry. I couldn't believe he would actually try to make me feel uncomfortable. A lady coming out of the store asked if I was ok and I told her yes and made up some b.s. story to her, then to avoid other questions, I went out to the truck and sat in there calming myself down. I mean I know he still maybe friends with her but I don't want to be around ex's. Yes Sean's met ex's but I don't drag him to them. Hell half the time he doesn't know till after they are gone to know they are my ex. Plus, I usually distance myself from them. I guess that's just me though. I don't want akwardness. I just don't understand why he did that and it really hurts me. I smiled once after that. It's not a nice feeling. I still feel like shit. I don't think he realizes how much it hurt me I mean I love him but something like that hurt me a lot. I don't even know why he likes me. I don't know how anyone likes me. I'm not a good friend, I know I'm not. I'm not good for anything. I'm bitchy, I make stupid comments, I can be really mean and I don't understand why anyone could call me a friend let alone put up with me enough as a girlfriend.
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Well, I better go I'm being a dipshit and I should just go study or something. adieu.
~*~<<*>>~*~Sarah~*~<<*>>~*~
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Ok so I haven't written in a while. I've been spending a lot of time with Sean. After he gets off of work he comes and see me.
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Yesterday was pretty up and down though. I felt so out of it, so I left school 5th and 6th period. I fell and banged up my knee. I practically slept on the bus and woke up a little bit when I saw Sean was there to pick me up. Then I got in the shower and got ready for the Catalina v. Marana football game. We went to his house, he got ready. Then we got into the truck he searched around for his bank card and left to the bank and get gas like 10 minutes later. Then finally on to the game.
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We started on our way to the game and there as a road block so we had to go around it. We got there at the end of 3rd quarter and the score was 28-0, catalina in the lead. *ScOrE* I saw some people there in our stands, not many though. Most were parents trying to catch the last game of the season. I did see Brad and his girlfriend. I think his girlfriend has never really liked me because I hug Brad and stuff, but she actually smiled at me and stuff, I think it's cause she saw I have Sean and I'm not interested in Brad other than a friend. Which is cool. Well, back on track I saw Niki last night! I miss her a lot but because she lives kinda close to Sean. I have seen her more this year than I have in the past few. I got to talk to her for a while which was awesomely awesome. Well, Catalina beat Marana 42-6. Sean and I talked to Niki a little bit more and then we left.
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After everything I was in a good mood. Sean took me to Wal*Mart and that was kinda fun until the end. The end really sucked. Well, Sean's ex works at the McDonalds in the Wal*mart, he tried to take me over there and I didn't want to. I told him I feel uncomfortable meeting ex's. So what's he do? He goes over there anyway and kinda pulls me along. I let go and walk out of the store. I sat on the bench outside and started to cry. I couldn't believe he would actually try to make me feel uncomfortable. A lady coming out of the store asked if I was ok and I told her yes and made up some b.s. story to her, then to avoid other questions, I went out to the truck and sat in there calming myself down. I mean I know he still maybe friends with her but I don't want to be around ex's. Yes Sean's met ex's but I don't drag him to them. Hell half the time he doesn't know till after they are gone to know they are my ex. Plus, I usually distance myself from them. I guess that's just me though. I don't want akwardness. I just don't understand why he did that and it really hurts me. I smiled once after that. It's not a nice feeling. I still feel like shit. I don't think he realizes how much it hurt me I mean I love him but something like that hurt me a lot. I don't even know why he likes me. I don't know how anyone likes me. I'm not a good friend, I know I'm not. I'm not good for anything. I'm bitchy, I make stupid comments, I can be really mean and I don't understand why anyone could call me a friend let alone put up with me enough as a girlfriend.
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Well, I better go I'm being a dipshit and I should just go study or something. adieu.
~*~<<*>>~*~Sarah~*~<<*>>~*~
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