Gah!!! Here I vent again!
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Ok.....Takes a deep breath *inhales* Ok so shit happend Wednesday, not really bad shit just kinda a thing between friends, ya know. Well, Chicken Patty Man ignored me on Wednesday and like didn't even say hi. Which kinda pissed me off. Well, then next day I guess he came over to the table and said hi and I was listening to my head phones and doing math homework (math homework my usual doings at lunch)so I didn't hear him. He asked Angela if I was mad at him and I don't know if she said anything but if she did it was because he ignored me. He then told her he wasn't over there today because he wanted to hang out with someof his other friends because he fells like he ditched them.....no excuse to ignore me and not say a simple word "HI". Today, he was hanging out by Brad before 2nd period and I walked right past him and went to class, 3rd period he didn't turn in the normal spot he does and kinda followed me up to the main hall then I turned and went a different way than I normally do so I could avoid him, then during 3rd I saw him when we were waiting to go inside because of a fire drill and he was walking near me, so I lost myself in the crowd. Maybe it was all coicidence, maybe not but whatever. He didn't try to talk to me at luch so his problem. Whatever.
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Today, I actually felt happy. I smiled more than I have in the past 2 days. Which basically was none except for when I was with my Sean. Everyone said I looked pretty today. I didn't do anything speacial today. I actually did my makeup but that's no biggie. Maybe it was because everyone saw me so down the past couple days and today I was kinda get back to normal and smiling, so they were trying to keep me smiling. lol. I don't know though.
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I hung out with Sean tonight. His jaw hurt. My poor sweetie. I hope he feels better. I need to get him sunscreen for work. The poor guy gets burned easy and now tomorrow he has to deal with a pain in his jaw AND the hot sun. *Prepares self to be calm so not to irritate him tomorrow* Hopefully, I can keep things calm. I know that I act stupid around him sometimes. I love him though and he knows it. I better get to bed it's getting really late or really early whatever you wanna say. Adieu for now!
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When you were here before
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You’re so fuckin’ special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I’m not around
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
She’s running out again,
She’s running out
She’s run run run running out...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special...
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t belong here
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Ok.....Takes a deep breath *inhales* Ok so shit happend Wednesday, not really bad shit just kinda a thing between friends, ya know. Well, Chicken Patty Man ignored me on Wednesday and like didn't even say hi. Which kinda pissed me off. Well, then next day I guess he came over to the table and said hi and I was listening to my head phones and doing math homework (math homework my usual doings at lunch)so I didn't hear him. He asked Angela if I was mad at him and I don't know if she said anything but if she did it was because he ignored me. He then told her he wasn't over there today because he wanted to hang out with someof his other friends because he fells like he ditched them.....no excuse to ignore me and not say a simple word "HI". Today, he was hanging out by Brad before 2nd period and I walked right past him and went to class, 3rd period he didn't turn in the normal spot he does and kinda followed me up to the main hall then I turned and went a different way than I normally do so I could avoid him, then during 3rd I saw him when we were waiting to go inside because of a fire drill and he was walking near me, so I lost myself in the crowd. Maybe it was all coicidence, maybe not but whatever. He didn't try to talk to me at luch so his problem. Whatever.
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Today, I actually felt happy. I smiled more than I have in the past 2 days. Which basically was none except for when I was with my Sean. Everyone said I looked pretty today. I didn't do anything speacial today. I actually did my makeup but that's no biggie. Maybe it was because everyone saw me so down the past couple days and today I was kinda get back to normal and smiling, so they were trying to keep me smiling. lol. I don't know though.
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I hung out with Sean tonight. His jaw hurt. My poor sweetie. I hope he feels better. I need to get him sunscreen for work. The poor guy gets burned easy and now tomorrow he has to deal with a pain in his jaw AND the hot sun. *Prepares self to be calm so not to irritate him tomorrow* Hopefully, I can keep things calm. I know that I act stupid around him sometimes. I love him though and he knows it. I better get to bed it's getting really late or really early whatever you wanna say. Adieu for now!
~*~<<*>>~*~Sarah~*~<<*>>~*~
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When you were here before
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You’re so fuckin’ special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I’m not around
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
She’s running out again,
She’s running out
She’s run run run running out...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special...
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t belong here
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