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well today has been pretty cool i guess...
actually no.
today has been pretty damn horrible...
kind of like all last month of my life.
i feel rotten. i feel horrible. i feel like a worthless steaming pile of giant squid vomit.
Keil doesn't realize he's doing it but he makes me feel horrible about myself. and he makes me feel like a douchey boy too...hard to explain. but anyways, i dont think he means to but he makes feel absolutely horrible about myself. and its really getting on my nerves how he thinks he's so awesome...god i hate how full of him slef he is. i mean he is a wonderful, loving, beautiful person but goddamn he doesnt have to remind me of it every five minutes. i dont even think he knows hes doing it. thats how used to it he is... i hate how he always puts me down and thinks im only interesting becasue of him...more people liked me before i started hanging out with him...lots of people used to love to talk to me now its like they all got sared away or something...keil isn't as godly as he thnks he is...
and i DARE him to write anything about this or bitch about it. i mean at least i am acknowledging some type of feeling for him...he hasnt bloody written about me in forever!!! i love him and he doesnt even act like he gives a damn!!! even after alli have given up for him...goshdamn.
okay i am going to write some more about my feelings becasue this is MY livejournal and i am tired of holding shit back just to keep feelings protected...well im sick of sacrificing mine. and since thanks to keil, im on this whole being the real me trip i think i will say whatever the hell i want. at least it'll be something interesting for you guys to read....
i miss george. yes i bloody miss him. i am worried about him seeing as how he hasn't been back to school and all...and i love him still. sorry everyone who doesnt like this. fuck you. i cant just let eight months of my life go down the drain instantly like that. i know he has been HORRIBLY mean to me. im not saying i want him back, i'm just saying i kinda miss the little shit. i am much better off without him but i did do him kinda dirty and i feel bad about it. especially becasue i am alays bitching at poeple who do the same stuff im doing and i hate feeling like a hipocrit. glad i got that out of the way.
moving on...still effing excited about my glasses.
i am going to see Hanson this october. thats right...Hanson bitches. don't even make fun of me...i will fucking eat your heart over &hearts hanson &hearts !!! my aweomely fabulous cousin tasha is taking me to see them in concert! woot! woot!
well i guess that's all i have to say for today...im in a much better mood now. Keil, seriously love, mexico isnt that far away...
Laters love
&hearts
BreAnna Dawn
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actually no.
today has been pretty damn horrible...
kind of like all last month of my life.
i feel rotten. i feel horrible. i feel like a worthless steaming pile of giant squid vomit.
Keil doesn't realize he's doing it but he makes me feel horrible about myself. and he makes me feel like a douchey boy too...hard to explain. but anyways, i dont think he means to but he makes feel absolutely horrible about myself. and its really getting on my nerves how he thinks he's so awesome...god i hate how full of him slef he is. i mean he is a wonderful, loving, beautiful person but goddamn he doesnt have to remind me of it every five minutes. i dont even think he knows hes doing it. thats how used to it he is... i hate how he always puts me down and thinks im only interesting becasue of him...more people liked me before i started hanging out with him...lots of people used to love to talk to me now its like they all got sared away or something...keil isn't as godly as he thnks he is...
and i DARE him to write anything about this or bitch about it. i mean at least i am acknowledging some type of feeling for him...he hasnt bloody written about me in forever!!! i love him and he doesnt even act like he gives a damn!!! even after alli have given up for him...goshdamn.
okay i am going to write some more about my feelings becasue this is MY livejournal and i am tired of holding shit back just to keep feelings protected...well im sick of sacrificing mine. and since thanks to keil, im on this whole being the real me trip i think i will say whatever the hell i want. at least it'll be something interesting for you guys to read....
i miss george. yes i bloody miss him. i am worried about him seeing as how he hasn't been back to school and all...and i love him still. sorry everyone who doesnt like this. fuck you. i cant just let eight months of my life go down the drain instantly like that. i know he has been HORRIBLY mean to me. im not saying i want him back, i'm just saying i kinda miss the little shit. i am much better off without him but i did do him kinda dirty and i feel bad about it. especially becasue i am alays bitching at poeple who do the same stuff im doing and i hate feeling like a hipocrit. glad i got that out of the way.
moving on...still effing excited about my glasses.
i am going to see Hanson this october. thats right...Hanson bitches. don't even make fun of me...i will fucking eat your heart over &hearts hanson &hearts !!! my aweomely fabulous cousin tasha is taking me to see them in concert! woot! woot!
well i guess that's all i have to say for today...im in a much better mood now. Keil, seriously love, mexico isnt that far away...
Laters love
&hearts
BreAnna Dawn
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