bang, your dead.
things have been the biggest pain in my ass. i've been in and out of the fucking hospital. barely sleeping, barely eating.. but thats nothing new. so hopped up on coke 24/7.. it's a surprise i sit still long enough to chat or even smoke a cig.. but despite that i've been smoking fucking 3-4 packs a day. hahah. fuck me, i'm lung cancer waiting to happen. who the fuck cares though, i'm already going to die early cause of my anemia since it's incurable and if i don't kill myself first.. my liver is going to explode or something... haha.. death by explosion. someone tape it please. i wanna be on rotten.com and be famous in death. yeah, that would be fucking awesome then you all can go "you know that tape of that goth guy on rotten.com... i used to know him.. he was an asshole. all he did was snort coke all day and have sinful gay sex! hes roasting in hell right now!" yeah, fucking hell... my back is killing me, i was cuddling with jess a bit ago... that didn't help much, laying down just made it worse... i haven't eaten since this time tuesday either... fuck man.. i should eat.. wtf is the pot noodle when i need it... i wonder if i can give some to jareth... he likes oatmeal.. hahaha. pot noodle taste good, better than oatmeal...in my opinion anyway... im sure thats tainted by the fact i'm really fucking stoned right now..hahahahah. pot is your friend. it makes you happy. like that one time.. me and chris got really fucking wasted one night and went to mcdonalds... and i had a fish sandwich and at that very moment.. it was the best thing i had ever eaten... and i dont even like fish... the smell of fish generally makes me fucking gag. haha... eeew. fish. not tuna, you fuckers. i like tuna... sometimes.... marmite is better... hmm... yeah.. anyway... i'm.... gonna shut up now.